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27 October 2009 ! at 10:59 PM ! You may say: It’s impossible but, God says: All things are possible. (Luke 18:27) You may say: I’m too tired, but, God says: I will give you rest. (Matthew 11:28-30) You may say: Nobody really loves me, but, God says: I love you. (John 3:16 & John 3:34) You may say: I can’t go on, but, God says: My grace is sufficient. (2 Corinthians 12:9 & Psalms 91:15) You may say: I can’t figure things out, but, God says: I will direct your steps. (Proverbs 3:5-6) You may say: I can’t do it, but, God says: You can do all things. (Philippians 4:13) You may say: I’m not able, but, God says: I am able. (2 Corinthians 9:8) You may say: It’s not worth it, but, God says: It will be worth it. (Romans 8:28) You may say: I can’t forgive myself, but, God says: I forgive you. (I John 1:9) You may say: I can’t manage, but, God says: I will supply all your need. (Philippians 4:19) You may say: I’m afraid, but, God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear. (2 Timothy 1:7) You may say: I’m always worried and frustrated, but, God says: Cast all your cares on ME. (I Peter 5:7) You may say: I’m not smart enough, but, God says: I will give you wisdom. (I Corinthians 1:30) You may say: I feel all alone, but, God says: I will never leave you or forsake you. (Hebrews 13:5) Because He cares… <3, thank you Teresa Quek! <3, CASS. ! at 1:26 AM ! Been staying out late so often, it feels weird to have to return home before the sky is dark :/ Haha. Went to thread eyebrows after school with Shurong! Wonder if it's really noticeable! Haha. Tried to catch 500 days of summer but we missed it D: So we watched Imagine That instead! It was not bad, really funny, and I just love the family-oriented theme! Haha. I realised I've been crying quite easily whenever I see sweet family themes... <3 I suppose. It reflects on how much I've missed out. How much I yearn that such scenes were really reality. Had Udders ice cream today too! Absolute <3 Although it was super ex, but, every lick was worth the cent! :D HAHAHA. Had Rum Rum Rasin (My absolute favourite & must!) & a new flavour, Whiskey Java Choc! <3 the new flavour! HAHAHA. It was pretty strong though, but <333! HAHAHA. I think Udders has officially won the 1st ice cream place in my heart already :D Love's been such a huge topic in my life lately. God has certainly taught me to love, in His most unique way. Of all people I had to work with, He placed me with the one I disliked the most. Yet out of that, a friendship has blossomed & is still growing. Dear God, I ask that You allow me to see people the way You see them, with love, compassion & care, especially for their souls. It's only when Your love fully flows in me, then can it overflow out of me, into others' lives, that they may come to know the unconditional & perfect love that I know. I've always thought that I understood love, but now I know that I don't. Love is so profound, so deep, so rich. I don't know if I can ever fully comprehend the meaning of love, to be love or to love, but I know, I have an everlasting fountain of Love within me. The Love of God. & I delight in that, for no other love can satisfy me the way Yours does. Yours has stood strong, unfailing, time after time, even when others' love has passed away, I know Yours will never leave me. Thank You, that out of millions & millions, You chose to give me this chance to come & experience Your love. Thank You for choosing me. Sleepy now! :D <3, CASS. 26 October 2009 ! at 1:48 AM ! Anyway! First week of school! Pretty eventful :D Monday Had ice cream for breakfast with Fifi! Hahaha. She was supposed to eat too, but she pangsei me in the end! D: So I ended up eating it on my own. It was supposed to bring HER fever down! Haha. PEC lecture was quite interesting! PEC's currently my favourite module :D The other modules are pretty okay for now. Tuesday Tuesday was just an awesome, awesome, AWESOME day! :D Oh my goodness. When I went to look for Fifi, Ronny, Juo Wi & Joshua gave me the shock of my life!!! They literally cornered me & interrogated me on why I cut my hair! HAHAHA. I just wanted a new look, I was super bored with my previous hairstyle already. There have been mixed reactions towards my new hairstyle :S I'm honestly still not very sure of people's comments towards it & whether it really looks nice or not... :/ Oh wells. Anyway. Had lunch with the CHS people & some of the GLs (Ronny was super sick about my favourite banana juice! D:), &&&! We then proceeded to play Sardine after school! HAHAHA. <3! It was super exciting! We're so gonna meet every Tuesday, I hope! Met Fifi & WT after fencing. They said my face before & after training was totally different D: I really really really hope I can hang on to fencing... It's been so tough lately, what with all the girls dropping out, the pressure of being the only girl left, the pressure of being the only one lagging super behind, be it during PT sessions or even drills sessions. D: I really don't know how long more I can hang on, or what I should do about it. I'm really lost & confused. D: I broke my pretty butterfly slippers too D: Wednesday No school day! Okay lah, attachment hasn't started. Skipped HI club booth thingy. Tired. Met Pris for shopping for Jelly's birthday present at town area. HTHT session <3! Caught Cloudy with a chance of Meatballs with her! I LOVE THE MOVIE <3! Can you believe I teared during a cartoon! Hahaha. But it was seriously good, very cute, funny, silly, & full of love :D Met some of my secondary family members! Puii, Qiao, Ana, Germ. <3 Even though I didn't really share much about my life that night, but I had an awesome time just hanging out with you 4. It's awesome how we're so different yet... So together. I really don't know how to share about my life, so much has been happening, so much feels so private, I'm just not ready to share a lot yet. I know you 4 will understand (: Sharing less doesn't equate to me loving you 4 less. :D Thursday I seriously wasn't myself. Walked 2 bus stops, climbed 5 flights of stairs up to class?! Hahaha. But it was good. I somehow really became PEC's module rep! Haha, I don't need anymore CCA points lah! But oh wells. PEC tutorial was like, camwhoring time! <3 HAHAHA. Love Xuan for bringing her camera everyday to take candid & camwhore pictures! :D Mr Timothy's a pretty interesting guy I suppose, his daughter is SUPER CUTE! :D & we used this super cool, brand new, glass whiteboard classroom! :D Wanted to go for training after school. But some stuff happened. D: I suppose it's only a matter of time, just how much is left for him. But he really breaks my heart, everytime I see him, it's as though I see him waiting to die. My dear Grandpa, I hope that you will pull yourself strong together, that although so much is happening now, always know that I love you. I really really really do. I'll never forget our airport times, our indian food times, or our news talk times. <3 Friday Was super tempted not to go to class, but ah wells. I was super sleepy with the lack of sleep the previous night. It was an okay day, all the GLs got married. HAHAHA. Had dinner with WT, Fifi & Kenn. & KY lah. He was there half the time. It was super funny as we tried to pluck Kenn's mini stubbles at his chin! :D Well, I went for ICE after dinner. It was pretty okay, but finally. I shared stuff with church people. With Jessie after ICE. Saturday Shopped with Alee, Fifi, Jasmine, WT, KY & Fangxiu (: Found out that I lost my ATM card D: Haiz. But at least, I bought a new pair of black jeans & a vest! & Alee gave me her free belt cause I wanted to get one! (: Thank you Alee! It was a good trip, Ah Beh joined us in the later part of the evening (: FB like mad that night! HAHAHA. Exco all became 'Engaged' on our relationship status. & somehow, I got engaged to KY. Played along with him on FB. But seriously, he's super mushy. Too mushy for me to take it! I wanted to die everytime I see his reply please!!! But I was just too unwilling to lose! HAHAHA. But it was super funny lah! Sunday HAHAHA. I seriously typed out the entire week's entries! :D Today was pretty interesting. Missed the first service & I just headed for children's. Went for beach baptism & then to town with Amelia & Janice! Bought my slippers from fourskin upon recommendation from Amelia! HAHAHA. My new PURPLE slippers! <3 They're pretty comfy too! :D After Janice left from Starbucks, Amelia & I had such a blessed time together. Somehow, we just had a HTHT session without even planning for it! & I'm so amazed, because I never knew that our family backgrounds were so similar. The troubles, the hurts, the feelings & emotions. It's like, someone finally goes through practically the same issues as me! (: & we feel pretty much the same way towards so many things, with the same ideals, same desires. I really really really thank God for the HTHT session I had with her! <3 Because of this encouraging talk, I changed my mind about church. (: Thank You God! :D It's been an amazing 1 week. <3 <3, CASS. 19 October 2009 ! at 1:13 AM ! You're better then the best I'm lucky just to linger in your light Cooler than the flip side Of my pillow, that's right Completely unaware Nothing can compare to where You send me, lets me know that it's okay Yeah, it's okay And the moments where my good times start to fade You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed Sing like bird, dizzy in my head Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe Shine like gold, buzz like a bee Just the thought of you can drive me wild Oh, you make me smile Even when you're gone, Somehow you come along just like A flower pokin' through the sidewalk crack And just like that You steal away the rain, and just like that You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed Sing like bird, dizzy in my head Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe Shine like gold, buzz like a bee Just the thought of you can drive me wild Oh, you make me smile Don't know how I lived without you 'Cause every time that I get around you I see the best of me inside your eyes You make me smile You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe Shine like gold, buzz like a bee Just the thought of you can drive me wild You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed Sing like bird, dizzy in my head Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe Shine like gold, buzz like a bee Just the thought of you can drive me wild Oh, you make me smile (Oh, you make me smile) Oh, you make me smile (Oh, you make me smile) Oh, you make me smile Love this song <3 <3, CASS. 18 October 2009 ! at 10:06 PM ! http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=596440697&v=feed&story_fbid=157998280697#/video/video.php?v=156688933458&ref=nf HAHAHA. Inside joke. So only those who went for HMS LAC '09 will know! VIDEO/DANCE OF THE CENTURY. It never fails to put many many many laughs in me! <3 the GLs! This is so going to be on replay mode tonight. :D <3, CASS. 16 October 2009 ! at 1:41 PM ! Much as the camp was tiring, draining, physically, mentally, & at times, even spiritually, I still love the camp. All the planning, the recees, the precamp, the last minute preparations, logistics, the changes here and there, the facils, the campers, all of these added together, can really be exhausting. But still I love it. Because these are all mere trials that we, the Exco, have gone through together. I see the angers, the fustrations, the uncertainties, the fears, the stress, the disappointments, but I also see the effort put in, the fun we had together, the joy & laughters, the inside jokes, the bonds we've formed, how we've drawn closer one to another, the support we give each other, the encouragement, the understanding, the care and concern for each other, and above all, I can feel the love we have. <3 Thank you Facils, for making this camp so fun (: Through this camp, I've grown to know more people around HMS, hahaha especially the BZSE & PCS people. Janell, Julinda, Joshua, Marcus, Amanda, Ronnie, Juo Wi, Kenn, Caryn, Cindy, Jiawen, Timonthy, etc etc. HAHA. Precamp was so much fun with all of you (: Watched the slideshow on the last day of camp. Precamp photos were the best! HAHAHA. The photo album is like, EXCO photo album please. We camwhore like mad! HAHAHA. But I love it! Matty han, please send me the video, I'l bring my hard disk soon! When it came to the actual camp one, Jasmine & I watched until sian diao. Cause, we were barely in there. Haha. But still! Memories of watching the activities and the camp were awesome. <3 & thank you to the campers who came, I wish I've managed to get to know you all better, but it's okay! (: You guys made the camp possible too, by having fun & playing with all your might & heart (: Thank You God, for sustaining me through the camp, for giving me the strength, for empowering me with the ability to love even when all I felt were tireness, disappointment and a loss of hope. But You never left me alone, You constantly opened my eyes & heart, & You reignite the fire in me time & again. Thank You for still loving me. (: <3, CASS. 11 October 2009 ! at 1:01 AM ! Oh, seconds, hours, so many days You know what you want but how long can you wait? Every moment last forever When you feel you’ve lost your way And what if my chances were already gone I started believing that I could be wrong But you gave me one good reason To fight and never walk away So here I am still holding on With every step, you climb another mountain Every breath, its harder to believe You’ll make it through the pain Weather the hurricane to get to that one thing Just when you think the road is going nowhere Just when you almost gave up all your dreams They take you by the hand and show you that you can There are no boundaries, there are no boundaries I fought to the limit to stand on the edge What if today is as good it gets Don’t know where the future’s headed But nothing's gonna bring me down Jumped every bridge, I’ve run every line I risk being safe, I always knew why I always knew why So here I am still holding on With every step, you climb another mountain Every breath, its harder to believe You’ll make it through the pain Weather the hurricane to get to that one thing Just when you think the road is going nowhere Just when you almost gave up all your dreams They take you by the hand and show you that you can You can go higher, you can go deeper There are no boundaries above and beneath you Break every rule 'Cause there’s nothing between you and your dreams With every step, you climb another mountain Every breath, its harder to believe You’ll make it through the pain Weather the hurricane to get to that one thing Just when you think the road is going nowhere Just when you almost gave up everything They take you by the hand and show you that you can There are no boundaries, there are no boundaries Oh, there are no boundaries, there are no boundaries There are no boundaries Alee sent this to me. To cheer me up. & I really wonder, can I make it through? Are there really no boundaries? It doesn't feel like it. <3, CASS. 09 October 2009 ! at 1:58 AM ! First of all was recee day! I totally embarrassed myself. Oh wells. I wasn't expecting everyone to laugh at me! I was talking to everyone, but since no one replied me, it sounded as if I was talking to myself. I was simply commenting on the environment around us. I had no idea it was so funny to people. HAHAHA. But ah wells. I had fun laughing with them (: OHOH. & there was night cycling too! HAHAHA. I think Pretty & Chuan died cycling with me please. (: & then there was pre-camp! Oh my. My face just turned redder & redder & my eyes filled up with tears from laughter & embarrassment as I watched the Exco, namely Weiting, recall ALL of my embarrassing moments! Haha. That was during lunch time on Monday. HAHAHA. & in the morning, I learnt of our Exco pets! (: A lizard & a silverfish! Haha & after we caught this centipede during one of the day games try out, I decided to give the new pets names! So the lizard was Billy, the silverfish was Bob & the centipede was Tiffany. & thus began my naming days. I have no idea why, but we started trying to acquire a lot of new friends, & I started naming them one by one! There's George the grasshopper & Tommy the toad! & the ants colony! Got a lot of names! HAHAHA. Like Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston! HAHAHA. But we didn't catch all of them lah. Oh but on the first evening, we found Billy dead! ): & I accidentally cut Bob into half as I tried to get him to return to the glass cup. & Tiffany died the next day ): I think got not enough water & no food. Haha. And I have no idea how come I named Wayne as Jonathan! Forgot what he asked me already, but the name has stuck. Hahaha. & somehow I'm now Jacintha! HAHAHA. KY'S ONE WORST. He's laosai!!! Because. During pre-camp, he asked, how to spell the English of laosai. So I said, K A Y Y O N G. HAHAHA. Almost died laughing please. & there's Bernard & Antonio & Jack & Rose the bowling pins! HAHAHA. Okay, that one's next part... SPORTS DAY! HAHAHA! SPORTS DAY! It was yesterday, after pre-camp. Initially, a lot of people were going! But a lot backed out at the last minute ): Oh wells. We had fun still! Me, Alee, Laosai, Fifi, Jasmine & Jonathan! Haha, we ate non stop in the afternoon please. After a normal lunch, we went to basement 1 & bought Taiwan chicken (Super funny!), Mars bars with ice cream & Cheezy Curry Chicken! HAHAHA. Pigs lah, to think that it's sports day! Anyway, we went bowling after that! At Cdans (: It was pretty fun, we named the bowling pins, ooh & the bowling balls too! Got Jennifer my bowling ball! (: & Laosai is a star bowler mannzxzx! HAHAHA. He runs to bowl! & I think Jonathan was the one with the highest score. I had super low scores lah! Haha. Then we went swimming at the Jurong East Swimming Complex! Jonathan & Alee didn't swim though. & when we got there, then we saw the no t-shirt sign! But Jasmine & I didn't have other clothes... ): So in the end we just gave it a try! Lifeguard 1 caught us twice! & as we sat by the side discussing what we should do then, Lifeguard 2 appeared with his shining reflective sunglasses & coolios red cap! HAHAHA. & he told us that he'll allow us to go play just this once, then next time must wear proper clothes! AWESOME LIEGUARD UNCLE! (: <3 him & his super cool sunglasses & cap! Anyway, we continued playing in the lazy river, then headed over to the wave pool, where the waves kept towering over me ): & I couldn't speak clearly! ): The waters all gushed into my mouth, & Jasmine, Fifi & Laosai kept laughing at me. &&&! The three of them always gang up together and splash water at me from 3 different directions! My back was facing the wall mah. ): So I went all out to play with them, started doing 'qing gong' stuff like pushing water etc at them, & the 'xiang long shi ba zhang'! :D COOLIOS OKAY! HAHAHA. & I tried to measure my height in the water. Dumbest thing ever. & Fifi, Jasmine & Laosai tried to teach me how to swim :X Haha, it was quite a weird & awkward eperience I suppose. HAHAHA. We had dinner at Jurong Point! Everything there was so expensive ): In the end, we just had Din Tai Fung. YUM YUM. :D Hahaha xiao long bao rocks lah! :D Sunday night at Beauty World Centre! :D Haha Tecky joined us for dinner & Jasmine went home from the Swimming Complex for dinner. Now I'm super broke ): HAHAHA. But all in all. I had a wonderful holiday spent with the Exco (: <3 you all! <3, CASS. 08 October 2009 ! at 9:11 PM ! It's pretty rare for me to have a whole day to myself, to just rest, relax, finish up whatever I have on my hands & just stop my mind from thinking. The past 3 weeks have certainly proved to be a challenge for me, with all the camps, and things to prepare (: But I really thank God for pulling me through, giving me pockets of rest here & there, teaching me what it really means to be still. I don't think I've fully understand what it means to just be still, to stop, to meditate upon Him, but I'm learning. I'm learning to trust in Him to give me strength, to control my emotions, to be less hasty to speak. Although I still slip up every now & then, but I know, I can be secured in His love. There are of course, still moments when I let sin get the better of me, when I allow the flesh to take over, for that moment, to be angry, dejected, disappointed, to wallow in self pity and be depressed. But You still remind me, that You love me without fail. That there is no end to Your love, that unworthy as I am, I do not have to face the darkness anymore. Because You are there, with me. You held my hand, You searched for me, You called out my name. You turned my heart towards You. You did that yesterday, today & You will continue to do that tomorrow & for all the days that follow. Heb 13:8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever. I just love Hebrews. A number of my favourite verses are from that book. & I'm just so comforted in God's love for me, how He sees me as a precious child of His. How I can still have this privilege of knowing that there is Someone out there who cares for & loves me. Even when my world seems to spin without light, I was just blinded. He is still holding on to me, even when I've given up, when I've let go. How deep is His love for me indeed. How deep the Father's love for us How deep the Father's love for us How vast beyond all measure That He should give His only Son To make a wretch His treasure How great the pain of searing loss The Father turns His face away As wounds which mar the Chosen One Bring many sons to glory Behold the man upon a cross My sin upon His shoulders Ashamed I hear my mocking voice Call out among the scoffers It was my sin that held Him there Until it was accomplished His dying breath has brought me life I know that it is finished I will nost boast in anything No gifts, no power, no wisdom But I will boast in Jesus Christ His death and resurrection Why should I gain from His reward I cannot give an answer But this I know with all my heart His wounds have paid my ransom <3, CASS. |