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the child. princess of God. gospeliter. 10111991. hmss091011. npech. B0108091011. hiclub. fencer. guides. 12c30405. 34s20607. crescent. the younger days. July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 November 2010 the peers. charmaineng henrietta samantha YOUTH. youth a big message a big mission glcc bernice chiawen daphne giolo ian jessica jiahao jonmuk kennethchai lesley lynnshan malcolm markchia melody ruth sicheng B01 [08091011]. B01 [08091011] afifah amirahlee daphne jieling kaiting latifah michelleling pengswee rongxuan tammie weiqian yvonne yiting SYFC. estherhuang marcus ruixin sheena sheryl vanessa HMS.NP. keala fencing alicia chuhui darren fiona hidayah jasmine juian kayyong madalene matthewhan romaine ronny tecky wayne CRESCENT. guides eileen
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31 January 2006 ! at 7:35 PM ! Don't want to stand here and shout Your praise And walk away and forget Your Name I'll stand for you if it's all I do Cause there is none that compare to You Cause all I want in this lifetime is You And all i want in this whole world is you Tell the world that Jesus lives Tell the world that, tell the world that Tell the world that he died for them Tell the world that he lives again No longer I but Christ in me Cause it's the truth that set me free How could this world be a better place? But by thy mercy and by thy grace C'mon, c'mon we'll tell the world about You C'mon, c'mon we'll tell the world about You Tell the world that Jesus lives Tell the world that, tell the world that Tell the world that he died for them Tell the world that he lives again C'mon, c'mon we'll tell the world about You Tell the world that Tell the world that C'mon, c'mon we'll tell the world about You Tell the world that Tell the world that About You tian ah!this song is so rockified pls! oh no i tihnk i become too close with that lame kaiqi le): what rockified.her word): this song ROCKS! whoo!(: okay byebye! :D <3, CASS. 29 January 2006 ! at 11:10 PM ! was addicted to making poems after i completed two guides poems! so i tried to write one about God, and din manage to complete it. but over time, i've found inspiration and! i've thus managed to complete it! though i hope its of not too shabby kinda work and its okay. but thank God for helping me to rhyme the words together and helping me find inspiration! it's entitled God and here's how it goes: God made me unique in a special way, And He blessed me every single day. He gave me a heart so that I can love, And a pair of hands for me to serve. Everyday He sees me through, As I eat, sleep and go to school. He helps me to overcome, All my problems and keep me from harm. And every night before I go to bed, With him I need to communicate. And in Him I can confide, All my deeds, evil or kind. I close my eyes and fell on my knees, And said a prayer I knew I need. My prayer to Him I knew was sent, And in His mind formed a great plan. He can work miracles and do great things, And help me to resist each and every sin. The emptiness in me He fills, And all my wounds He will heal. He saved me from eternal hell, And picked me up when I fell. He's my comforter when I am sad, And my best friend when I feel glad. His presence in my life is what I long for, His miracles I witnessed and saw. To Him I feel the need to worship, For He's my shepherd and I'm His sheep. His love for me I cannot measure, I only know that He is my treasure. He deserves all my love and praises all my life, For only He is my God, my Lord, my pure delight. im so happy i've managed to finish this poem and i hope it'll bring pleasure to all who reads it! :D tata and tc everyone! <3, CASS. ! at 9:15 PM ! heh last min art class postponed. so went home and changed then i went to church! tian ah i miss the teenz a lot! heh like so long nvr go le. had fun and i it was quite a special night for me i guess and hahaha. according to iris after the reunion dinner we had a reunion fishball dinner! hahaha a few of us were just cooking fishballs non-stop and just eating fishballs lah. and nerissa and iris dont believe that the fishballs arent hot enough thus i can just put it straight into my mouth from the steamboat thing! heh but it really wasnt that hot! and jon muk was so mean! he bullied my henrietta leh. he frightened her and made her ask the donation thingy herself! and somemore at first he din want to donate cuz he said he cldnt see that he'll get benefit from donating! tskk lorz so stingy. hahaha mean pok. had loads of fun and gail tried to teach me how to play floorball but apparently i cant get it :/ i still cant figure the turn turn motion she did with the stick and ball! and my hand smelt of rubber after i played with the stick and ball! :/ but its okay i guess cuz it was still quite fun! heh and apparently we all became her chiefs and started cooking for her! but it was great fun! after that jessie went home with us cuz she felt that it wasnt safe for three little girls to go home by themselves late at night! :D we're fierce people you know! heh then after that she had to go home herself! and sophie and rachel chng are so sweet!so nice! gave me cny chocs! thank you dearies! sigh was quite touched they actually bothered to give me cny present! i love them to bits and pieces! :D well yeah that's all. i feel so lost and confused. and i dont think i know who i am anymore and i feel the distance between all of us expanding, growing wider and bigger with every passing day. i dont think i even know how to talk to all of you anymore. i just feel so different and awkward and i just feel like im just hanging around you all. and im just like tagging along. i dont know. i think stress has brought me down and im really stressed out by practically everything and im really depressed and i really want to be happy, like truely really happy but i dont know how. there's just this heavy burden in me and i dont even know why it's there or what's the burden but i guess its everything mixed together and i feel as though its pulling me down and im depressed and tired of everything and i just want to be not tired. and i feel as though i can cry everyday because i feel like im under such great stress and i can just break down any moment. i dont know and im really lost and confused now. i only know that the only thing i can do now is to pray and ask God to help me and give strength and rest. and to help me go through all these. and i'll wait for Him to answer my prayer and help me. thank you Lord. well, HAPPY CNY EVERYONE. i dont really like cny anymore and its just so boring except for the whole collecting and getting hongbaos part but after that, nth much alr. how sad.): im too tired alr. finished buying all my cny clothes alr and i bought new shoes and a pair of cute slippers! tired now byebye. <3, CASS. 24 January 2006 ! at 3:45 PM ! Lord I love to sing Your praises, I'm so glad You're in my life, I'm so glad You came to save us. repeat You came from Heaven to Earth, To show The Way, From the Earth to The Cross, My debt You paid, From The Cross to the grave, From the grave to the sky, Lord I lift Your Name on High!(3X) Lord I lift Your Name on High, Lord I love to sing Your praises, I'm so glad You're in my life, I'm so glad You came to save us. repeat. You came from Heaven to Earth, To show The Way, From the Earth to The Cross, My debt You paid, From The Cross to the grave, From the grave to the sky, Lord I lift Your Name on High! what a nice worship song! we all ought to learn it and sing one day! hahaha.XD <3, CASS. 22 January 2006 ! at 10:45 AM ! had a conference call with ziying and sophie last night.haha. i've found another meaning for cute! it is... SEXUALLY ATTRACTIVE! :D hahaha. and ziying kept insisting mr pooh is CUTE! but we kept telling her mr pooh isnt at all SEXUALLY ATTRACTIVE! hahaha.i dont think she believes us. although we suggested to her that mr pooh and piglet would find each other cute! hahaha.im gonna marry mr pooh with piglet! stupid ziying ah. dont want to do the bimbo cheer for me and sophie!): and that silly sophie thinks we really believe that she put her phone in the cupboard so she cant hear ziying do the bimbo cheer! wake up little girl! we aren't little kids like you anymore sophie dear! hahaha.and sophie ah. i cant tell the difference between you and 'sophia' eh. its the same person ah! hahaha she tried to lie to us that she had a twin called sophia ong! hahaha sophie we weren't born yesterday you know! grow up darling. you aren't 13 anymore! you're a senior already silly sophie you must be more mature eh understand? hahaha :D hahaha sophie's still arguing about the REAL meaning of cute! she says cute means cute! what nonense ah. anyway im gonna try and improve my art and i think right, art's getting more interesting already. even though i duno whether i still want to try a maths. maybe not lah. oh wells i'll think abt it first. yesterday was my niece gia's first month old party! went there in my sch uni and was so paiseh please cuz no one i knew was wearing sch uni and it was so boring please urgh. even though gia was super cute and maia was super cute too! hahaha.and the food was DELICIOUS! oh my tian lorz i wanna eat that food everyday! but i think i'll grow fat again so its okay! the cheesecake was DELICIOUS! hahaha had four TINY pieces!tian ah. just hope that i din put on weight or grow any fatter!): hahaha.the adults were all talking among themselves and my cousins for some reason, seem to be very unfriendly and scary and so i din talk to them at all for the whole night yesterday : anyway so i was super bored so i went to talk with ziying and sophie! hahaha we had a great time chatting. and the super nice me taught ziying how to do her maths! oh yea and i promised to lend her my sec2 maths and sci notes so i'll have to find it out JUST FOR HER later on even though im super busy! but its okay cuz im so nice!(: so sad i had to miss the teenz worship last night and i cant go for today or tmr's thingy so sad): nvm next fri got reunion dinner i wanna go! hahaha charmain says she wants to have reunion dinner with me and i know she misses me a lot lah! heh i also want to have reunion dinner with the teens! hahaha shall ask kaiqi and jiamin to go with me! and adel said she might come cuz i invited her there!(: well she wanted to check the place out too anyway! hahaha then maybe i can get her to go with me every friday too!(: anyway better go le lah. got tons of homework waiting for me to complete and do and i still gotta find my stuff out for ziying so BYEBYE! <3, CASS. 20 January 2006 ! at 2:10 PM ! hahaha im feeling HIGH again! cuz... 1.im in love with God! 2.i had my shower! 3.i had my dinner! 4.im obessed with that BIMBO CHEER! although i must admit im totally not bimbotic! :D hahaha. here's how it goes: oh, my tian, i think i need a manicure. the sun, i swear, is burning out my gorgeous hair. 28, 64. what's the score? i don't care. gogogo! fightfightfight! gee, i hope i look alright! so cute! :D plus you must say in the SUPER bimbotic voice then nice lorz and hahaha. ziying and joyce say i totally can pass off as a bimbo by that voice! hahaha.so funny! :D hahaha. oh and yesterday i checked the dictionary! for the REAL meaning of CUTE. it means: daintily attractive; pretty! hahaha. which means im daintily attractive! hahaha. i don't mind! :D lol.anyway. today had guides telematch! hahas quite fun but stinky leh! but not very dirty lah more of all the sauces mixed together de super stinky smell that made me NEARLY puked. :yuck yuck.wish it was dirty instead. at least i don't/won't stink! hahaha. but i could smell all the sweat and sauces smell mixed together! wahah.so gross please : after i got changed then went home with kaiqi; ziying; cynthia. hahaha kaiqi's ded sent us home! thank you uncle!(: but me and ziying were like SUPER HIGH! lol then kaiqi and cynthia were so LOW): but kaiqi was HIGH at first! hahaha i taught ziying the bimbo cheer! tried to teach kaiqi too! but she wasn't in the bimbo mood): oh wells shall teach her AGAIN! seeing how kaiqi really is like totally depressed makes me sad too. went to her blog and the words she typed really touched my heart. i understand what she's going through. really regret at that point of my life, although i was a christian but i knew i back slided away from Him. i was never interested to go to church and i always fell asleep during the services and during the almost one whole year period i was there, it's amazing how i NEVER EVEN MADE A SINGLE FRIEND AT ALL! but im glad that now i've come back to HIm once again and i now know that i will never be able to back slide away from Him ever again cuz i can just feel His presence everywhere with me and it's just so comforting to know that no matter what, someone who loves you so deeply to the extent that He could gave up His ONLY Son just to save you and bring you to heaven instead of letting you perish and suffer in hell eternally, and that someone would always be by your side sharing your misery or joy and i think that's a really wonderful thing! it's like the greatest feeling on earth! and i know im falling fast and madly and deeply in love with Him! im just so glad i've came back to His side after making a big round in this world of sins and now im just so delighted to be in His presence! Lord, i thank you for all the strength you've given to me so that i can do my tests this week with so many of them in a row. Give me strength to do art and help me Lord, to be able to take the pressure of doing art and help me not to just give up but to perserve on and do well in art. Help me Lord, to manage my time well and help me to prevent my temptations of going online and just surf the net and not do my homework and then end up sleeping late. Lord give me the strength to pass each tiring and stressful day and help me not to complain and think of each day as a dread but to appreciate all the things you've created just for me. Lord i just want to thank you for everything you've done and given to me be it just food on my table or clothes to wear or just letting me live through each day. i really love you Lord :D kaiqi jia you eh. dont give up hope cuz we both know that He'll answer your prayer and my prayer and everyone else's prayer and He'll work miracles! jia you and keep on praying! pray until something happens! :D byebye! :D look at how the stars SHINE for You; im gonna be a SHINNING STAR for You too. <3, CASS. 18 January 2006 ! at 2:45 PM ! JOYCE HO's fave past time is... MAKING ME CRY! she hor,always MUST type those sad sad sentimental stuff, then ask me to read. so innocent me will go and read. read already leh, i will CRY. cuz i miss all also those times... those people... those places... sigh. joyce ho ah joyce ho. but she's right. i miss chasing shermain to eat quickly! miss cuixia and shermain EVERY recess also must go and change! miss win amusing me with all her sick jokes and stuff! miss jiatru and suethoon being super lame! miss joyceho and her blurness! then talk to her can heart attack de! sigh.i guess two years is really long yet short. and we're all really being separated by all these timetable,CCA,sch stuff... we can't even make time to meet up and chat or just go out and have fun! im really saddened by all these): oh wells.din go to church on sunday): dad din allow still): anyway! i cant believe iris can guess the ______ person!): hahas.but it was great talking to her about it! :D had my 1st peer leading session today with 1s1 cuz 3s2 got too many peer leaders le lah. then saw jiamin too! oh im afraid that i was too fierce to them! as in during photo taking. cuz they were very noisy and kept switching places after we arranged them in register order because of the photo-taking seesion! then they weren't listening so i think i shouted a bit to them): but they were quite fun lah. although they tortured me): wanted to make me sing the sch song to them! solo somemore leh! but i was very paiseh. cuz i din know the lyrics!): anyway just like sang like the 1st line! i nearly died okay. butbutbut! I SURVIVED!(: hahas.yep. forgot to bring my maths tb home! so i gotta skip recess and do it! anyway im alr planning to skip recess and lunch also cuz i must diet!(: i am so proud of myself! i grew 1cm taller over the holidays! and i even lost 3kg!(: yay!hahas. today PE was a bit scary! :/ cuz during mass run, miss ang saw hanis and melody and crystal running slower than the other sec 3s so she punished them! made them run 10 rounds round the parade square! but i think they din finish the 10 rounds. cuz after like almost one period, miss ang called them over. luckily she nvr see me! i was BEHIND hannis and melody and crystal! so SCARY. the other period of PE we did javalin throwing! hahas fun but scary! i a little scared of the stupid javalin! its so big lorz and scary!): Kaiqi! jia you and stand strong yea? dont give up and always pray to God for strength and you'll have all the strength you need to finish sec 2!(: i'll be praying for you my darling sis!(: love ya loads loads! I<3KAIQI! okay lah. think that's enough le! haha.gtg le wanna slp soon! byebye dearies!(: <3, CASS. 16 January 2006 ! at 8:55 AM ! im not exactly VERY HIGH now though. hahaha.iris wants to guess the ______ person! hahaha.happy guessing iris! :D oh wells.had quite a good week! mon to fri was as usual tiring! but then on tues was holiday yay! and on fri was CCA day! was super tired.): nearly got lost on my way to glcc. THANK GOD that i finally found the bus-stop after walking for almost half an hour since i dropped at the wrong bus-stop :/ hahas.PRAISE GOD! well finally arrived at glcc. was slightly early reached abt 7. yea saw teresa and gail. we went up together. kaiqi and jiamin cheat me de :/ nvr go with me to glcc! anyway i had to go there in my full u. and i was SUPER tired. it was as though i could fall asleep any moment during the service. butbutbut! i can do all things through HIM who gives me strength! yay!teresa prayed for me to have strength and yay!i din fall asleep at all! even though i hugged my humongus bag throughout the service! haha.my bag really is very comfortable! anyway.went home after teenz worship and slept at abt 2! had an art test on sat! turns out the test was abt whether we would really come at 8 in the morning and whether we would just skip out and pon school a not. so i passed!(: but i guess my drawing really cmi. i would need a lot of work to catch up and then i was kinda thinking, if instead of batik could i do sculpture. but i duno.havent asked tricia goh yet. but if i need to provide my own materials then its okay i guess. i'll do batik. cuz it'll be too expensive. cant afford it. anyway i'll just pray abt it. pray that God will show me the way and help me choose the wisest choice and help me in my art and give me strength to be able to take the pressure and stress. yeps. oh and hopefully, i'll be able to go with my sisters for that reunion dinner at glcc next fri. pray that dad will allow us to go. yeps.and i guess i better go finish up all my homework le! so byebye people!(: <3, CASS. 12 January 2006 ! at 10:40 AM ! I was no one when I first met you I had nothing of worth in my life But then I found you and it all became clear You're the one that I've been searching for From the start I couldnt figure it out Why someone like you would die for me But I know that your love for me is so great And that is why im giving you my life I am yours every part of me Jesus you're the reason I live Take my life Lord and use me as you will Jesus you're the reason I live I can't believe that you're with me til forever I'll never leave you and you'll never leave me It's what I long for your presence here in my life Cos you're the air I breathe my reason why Running After YOU - Planetshakers Your Word is a light unto my path Your Love guides me through my darkest night And even though sometimes Your ways I cannot understand I'll never walk away because my future's In Your hands I don't care what people will say I'm running after You I won't turn back and go their way Coz I'm running after You Yeah I'm running after You I'm running after You (I will run to You) I don't care what people will say I'm running after You I won't turn back and go their way Coz I'm running after You Don't matter what may come my way I'm running after you It's You I'm following today I'm running after You I'm running after You I totally love that 2 songs! hahas so totally cool!(: hey all you people(: im feeling HIGH again(: hahas.feeling HIGH is one of the BEST feeling(: hahas.paiseh ah. anyway yesterday was zuriel's birthday! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ZURIEL!(: hahas.okay then im a little bored now. butbutbut! im feeling HIGH because... i've finished my guide poem already! actually it wasn't very good :butbutbut i had the help of someone who is very modest and claims to be very humble thus she does not want me to announce her name to the world!(: its s_____t__! hahas guess yourself who she is!(: anyway,she's like so pro! changed all the unrhyming words to rhyming le!(: cool or cool?(: hahas.i've also finished my article for the newsmagazine for my church glcc! hahas.hopefully its of good standard! anyway,i was in a very poetic mood today! so i tried to write a poem of praise for God! but not completed yet): only got like SIX lines(: but its RHYMING though(: hahas. went home with shuyi adel and lois today. took 970 again like yesterday. i think im very suay with the bus 970. cuz yesterday i sat right, then i sat next to this lady. she very bitchy leh! me shuyi and adel were like chatting and then, adel and shuyi were being very zi lian so they kept taking pics of themselves on the bus! anyway right, the woman was like tzk tzk tzk ALL THE TIME! but that was not all. She also kept looking at us out of her corner of her eye! cuz we were wearing our guide tee then i think she wanted to see what school we were from. then after like 3/4 of the journey, shuyi and adel and me were communicating through our phones. then suddenly she was like to me, "girl ah,your hair ah has been flicking flicking flicking ah." and somemore she said in the 'im very irritated by you already' tone. like i have eyes behind my head/hair meh? like i can see my hair got flick her. plus shuyi and adel say nvr even touch her lorz. hmph.totally pissed off and irritated with her): anyway,then today took 970 also got sad incident): cuz the bus very squeezy mah. so when the bus suddenly braked, i accidentally stepped on this guy's shoe. then he made this stupid "grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr" sound like a dog[according to adel]! so stupid lorz. i mean i even apologize please. whatever): okay my mood was totally spoilt after that two incidents): but its okay because im feeling HIGH HIGH HIGH now again!(: tmr got guides!(: but friday is cca day! hopefully i can end early then can go for teenz worship! but will have to go in my full guide uni!): sianz lahs. but WORTH IT yea?! hahas okay then. maybe jiamin and kaiqi will go together with me(: hahas.okay nothing le lah(: so byebye!(: <3, CASS. 10 January 2006 ! at 3:47 PM ! hahas. everyone's so interested to know who the ______ person is in my last post! hahas. but i shall not reveal(: secret person lah(: anyways. this week's been kinda okay. tmr's holiday! : D yay cool! wahha. chatted with lots of guides online! din know renee was so lame! cuz i was asking her about an artistic poem. and she modified my poem to... MUSHROOMS! so out of point can!): wahha but very lame and funny! hahas and horz, we had a 'who's the lamest competition'! hahas. oh wells. din have much homework. but me and ah del doing flag-raising this week! oh!and i got a new fave bible verse! Matthews 11:28 Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. so COOL!(: hahas. its so comforting to know that the Lord will give my rest when im super tired!(: okay gtg le! byebye(: <3, CASS. 04 January 2006 ! at 3:00 PM ! im in a state of depression now. oh and i think i should go on hiatus like from now on. no more time for blogging le. anyway i saw my timetable and i was SHOCKED. its like im thinking of dropping art alr. cuz of the timing and all the effort and time tricia goh told us we had to put in if we want to score A1. first,its 3-6. then tricia goh says it wont be enough de. there will be many days we'll have to stay back just to complete our art pieces like to get an A1. i really really dont know if me taking up art is like the right choice. anyway.im totally stressed out. and was totally depressed. and i think i NEARLY brokedown and cry): becuz of the stupid timetable. but,BUT,but, luckily i had comforters(: they comforted me and everything(: and one of them was______!(: thanks for all your words of comfort(: and thanks for all your advice to me!(: oh wells. im feeling loads better now(: anyway.i think i gtg le. oh yar. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTIE JESS(: tata everyone(: <3, CASS. 03 January 2006 ! at 3:10 PM ! this is my guide poem on conservation. gosh i hope its okay. its like so sad sounding): All around me I see, dying plants and trees. Dead birds from the sky, no longer can they fly. Insects and animals going extinct, their carcasses are stinking. The heavens above are weeping as the rain, can you feel and hear their cries and pain? Look around you and think again, you are losing everything with nothing to gain. Is this a world that you would like? A world so dead and without life. gosh.it seriously sounds so sad. does this tell people that we have to conserve the world's resources? or is it just a crappy sad poem? bah.school reopening tmr le. gtg le byebye): <3, CASS. 01 January 2006 ! at 1:15 PM ! urgh just been to the guides blog. saw this anonymous person. urgh the person was like 'all guides are lame' how jerkish/bitchy/shitty can that person be? i mean,seriously. he/she doesnt even has the guts to say who he/she is. urgh.please. okay.anger vented(: im so sad): its the last day of the year! oh wells. lynn invited me to her house for a countdown party. but my lovely mum din allow): how shit. oh thanks alot. i've been to any parties before): see how miserable my life is? urgh. oh anyways. i found out i passed a test that i guessed im not supposed to pass yet? but nvm.oh and i havent passed some tests): oh wells. still havent done any chi. finished maths,half of eng. urgh.i am so dead. okay.had a haircut today. my hair is like so so so SCREWED UP :/ bah.not long nor short enough. okay gtg le. byebye.(: HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!(: <3, CASS. |