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28 February 2008

! at 10:14 PM !

I have decided on a new career alternative choice! :D Heh, I want to be an air stewardess! Well, maybe lah huh. So far I really enjoy the satisfaction from serving as a waitress and well, I want to travel round the world!

I can't wait for my mum to rent the next Hong Kong drama series, I just finished one called To Grow With Happiness I think. It's a cute, sassy and funny show, with romance of course. Hmm, haven't finished my Korean show though ://

I forgot to eat breakfast today ): So I had to go to work on an empty stomach and I only had dinner at like, 5 plus? :// I was practically starving. Well not really lah, since I didn't think much about my tummy until after all the guests had left and I had to do all the boring bits like clearing up and resetting the table and all.

Anyway, today's work was scary :// This Singaporean-with-poor-english-other-waiter-guy tried to pick me up. At first I thought he was just being friendly and all, then he started complimenting me and even asked me when I'll bring him out on a date! I got so freaked out the moment he said I was cute and pretty. Scary okay :// I pratically avoided him through the entire time we were working. Well, I was very careless at work today. I didn't realise I had slipped my phone into my bag accidentally and nearly thought that I lost it. Which was great actually, thank God so much. Because then the Singaporean-with-poor-english-other-waiter-guy couldn't get me to exchange hp numbers with him, which was what he wanted. Thank God so much! Haha so when he lamented that we couldn't exchange numbers because I had lost my phone (I had actually found my phone by then), I just smiled sheepishly and went to serve other tables. Heh I felt quite mean but well, he was scaring me! And then there was this chinese auntie who kept trying to talk to me, she kept gossiping at my ear ): Which was pretty irritating after a while, especially when I was listening to the captain for instructions.

Ah okay, shall end here today. I still got quite a number of stuff to do. Hopefully James would come online soon because I need more information for the powerpoint slides!



<3, CASS.

25 February 2008

! at 10:53 PM !

I didnt get into VJ ): appeal was unsuccessful. Haha actually I'm over the initial grief stage already, it's just acceptance now (: Although VJ was and still is my dream school, it's obviously not the school God has in mind for me. And once again, I've learnt how to surrender my dreams to God, so that it's not about me, but it's for God. So many people have asked me why, 7 points after deduction is good enough for me to go to quite good jcs, yet I chose to go to poly instead, and early childhood course at that. The cut-off for ech is 15, and it's not exactly a super popular course. To many, it seems like it's very wasted for me to go to poly. But I guess God just placed a burden in my heart for children. But sometimes I grow afraid too, I'll wonder if this is really where God wants me to go, am I really in God's will, and I'll start to feel a little confuse, a little uncertain, unsure and inconfident of the seemingly fogged future. But I'm learning, step by step I'm learning, learning how to surrender my life to God, learning how to seek solace and comfort in God, learning how to feel the peace of God and what it's like to be still. It's been a wonderful month for me, what with so many ups and downs, a whole rollercoaster ride through a journey with my moods, and I'm loving every bit of it. (:

Right now I'm working as a part time waitress with an agency (: I do waitressing at banquets, like for dinners and functions and all. It's been a challenging yet fun job, and I love the satisfaction when I see a guest smile, knowing that I've provided good service. :D It's 6 per hour, average pay (:

God has certainly blessed me so much, and on Sunday, yesterday that is, I witnessed once again for myself, Him working. What happened was that my sisters and I were going to be late for 1st service and I was carrying a whole box of link, so my mum asked us to take a cab. We walked to the main road, but my main road's pretty quiet, and there were virtually no empty cabs in sight. We were really running late and my sisters suggested calling for a cab. I didn't want to waste extra money so I hesitated and we compromised, I'll call for one if we still can't get a cab by 8.45am. After a whole, I checked the time and realised it was 8.42, I was a little frustrated and then I decided to pray. I asked God to send an empty cab down my way to pick us up. At 8.44, an empty cab stopped by and by 8.45, we were in the cab and on our way to church for the 1st service! :D It was definitely God working, a miracle that can only be created by Him. I must give thanks this friday if there's a chance! :D

Today's my mummy's birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM! :D Haha, a woman's age is a secret thus I shalt say her age. :D

Went to watch P.S I Love You with Lyana today. Hahaha and we both realised what hopeless romantics we were! We were tearing at all the sad scenes! And the sweet ones too, the parts where Gerry was so sweet to Holly, hahaha we both died lah! Thank God we caught the early show, so nobody in the almost empty cinema knew that we cried. I think we both died when Gerry planned Holly's birthday party in advance and sent her a recording saying that he did all that for her because he couldn't let go despite having passed away! Haha we think that if we ever fall in love, we'll both fall hard, and we're dead if guys are terribly sweet to us! Hahaha it was so funny lah, I love watching romantic movies with Lyana!

Kaixiang and I were just chatting and we both realised how much we missed 0843B ): I miss the class! I miss all the nonsense we talked about in class and the games! Hahaha how can I ever forget the games we play during the lunch times!!! Murderer was just a killer laughter, so was heart attack. The drink mixture number guessing game was just unforgettable lah, haha I remember the first time I played it I had to drink 10 sips when it was my turn and I just vomitted at the 7th or 8th sip, it was terrible lah! Haha but it was nonetheless, fun (: Haha and I remember the time we were playing blackjack in the canteen then I spotted a teacher and we all quickly hid the deck of cards and started playing with M&Ms on the canteen instead! That was hilarious after the teacher walked pass! I miss the time we went to play pool and how funny it was when we made silly mistakes, I ended up embarrassing myself, by screaming, as usual, when I made silly mistakes! Haha and when Nick told me to just push the ball lightly so that the coloured one would go in and I ended up pushing too lightly and Nick just stared at the ball in amazement as though something almost impossible just happened. I was so embarrassed. Haha and the trip to East Coast! It was so fun to cycle with them and then play ball in the sand by the sea and getting sunburnt. Haha and how we keep seeing Jacob's moon. That silly guy! And Miss Ashley's silliness and oh! Her funny candid picture which was hilarious! Haha ah, I miss 0843B lah! We should have another class outing soon! ):

Alright, time to go off I suppose (: Oh, tag my board yeah people? My board's dying ):



<3, CASS.

19 February 2008

! at 12:22 AM !

Tomorrow's the posting results! :D Haha unlike many, I'm not nervous or anything, I suppose this is because I more or less know where I'll be posted to already (: Anyway, I wrote the principal of VJC an appeal letter on my own, handwritten. I hope he has the intelligence to tell the depth of my sincerity to get into VJC and then accept me. :D Haha but whatever it is, I'll put a copy of it up here (:

Dear Mr Chan

I would like to submit this letter as one of the documents to support my appeal. Firstly, I would like to take this opportunity to thank Victoria Junior College in the mental support it has offered me. Since I was 10, I was extremely fascinated by the idea of being able to study theatre and drama in depth as an A-level subject. As such, Victoria Junior College became my dream school after I entered Secondary One at the age of 13. Sad to say, I gave up in my studies in my first three years at Crescent Girls' School, foolishly resigned to the fact that I will only do average or do badly for 'O' levels. However, at Secondary Four, I woke up from my foolishness after constant encouragement from many school teachers. It was at this point of time when a friend of mine told me about her school's motto and the inspiring meaning behind the three simple yet wise words "nil sine labore". The words "nothing without labour" tagged at my heart's tender string as it dawned upon me how true these words are. With this new inspiration that I've found, I became more motivated to put in the hard work needed for me to attain top results to enter Victoria Junior College.

Although I did not make the grade by a couple of points, I firmly believe that impossible is nothing as long as I put my heart to it. I am extremely interested in the well established asts subjects offered by Victoria Junior College. I believe that a strong foundation in the Theatre Studies and Drama (H2), Literature in English (H2), History (H2) and Mathematics (H1) would prepare me for my career journey. My sole reason for having such a strong desire to take up Theatre Studies and Drama at Victoris Junior College is because it opens to me a whole new array of career choice which fit my passion and interests perfectly. This is especially so for my topmost career choice, which would be to help kids with emotional problems or learning disabilities. My passion for theatre and drama productions have led me to delve deeper in search of an answer to my question of how drama coule help kids with certain disabilities or problems. Althoug I have not had much explsure to theatre and drama, (having only co-written the script for my church's children musical in 2007 and watched a local musical - Beauty World), I feel that I can always put in the effort needed for me to achieve my dreams. I would be deeply honoured and grateful to you if you could give me this chance.

Not only that, I am espcially keen in the CCA, Outdoor Activities Club, at Victoria Junior College. Its excellent reputation has attracted me deeply, and I am particularly interested in the up and coming event, the race that it is hosting. I believe that my CCA records would speak for themselves. Having been recently awarded the Colours Award and Eagles Award, I am certain that they will bear witness to the high level of committment and contribution I am willing to give to my CCA.

I would like to thank you for taking time out of your busy schedule to read my appeal letter. I sincerely hope that you will consider my appeal case favourably. Do feel free to contact me at 9******* for any queries.

Yours sincerely

Cassandra Ng Qi Ying

Heh. Such a long letter, it filled up to 2 pages with all the letter formats. Okay shall post soon again, I'm sleepy already (: Goodnight ya'll!



<3, CASS.

12 February 2008

! at 11:11 PM !

An Indian was walking in downtown New York City alongside a resident friend. As they approached a busy street corner in the center of Manhattan, the Indian seized his friend’s arm and whispered, “Wait. I hear a cricket.” “Come on!”, the city boy sneered, “This is downtown New York — how could you possibly hear a cricket?” His friend persisted however, “No - seriously, I do!”

As cars were roaring, horns honking, people shouting, brakes screeching, cash registers clanging, subway clamoring and people bustling about, the Indian began leading his friend along slowly, every now and again stopping and turning his ear toward the seemingly noiseless sound. At last, the Indian insisted they were near and proceeded to follow the sound across the street and toward a small dark corner next to a graffiti covered wall. There, he bent down to a minuscule tuft of grass and pulled out the cricket. “I told, you”, he said, “I heard a cricket.”

Astounded, the New Yorker marveled “How could you have heard that cricket in the middle of all this noise?” “Well”, said his foreign friend, “My ears are different from yours. It simply depends on what you’re listening to. Here, let me show you what I mean.” He reached into his pocket and pulled out a handful of change –a couple of quarters, three or four nickels, and a dime and a few pennies. “Now,” he said, “watch this.” He held the coins waist high and dropped them to the sidewalk. At once, every head within nearly a block turned around and looked in the direction of the Indian.

“You see, It all depends on what you’re listening to.”

To what sounds are our ears trained to listen? Are they trained to hear the sound of money, of gossip, of complaining, of worldly things or are they trained to hear the still small voice of the Most High, directing and advising us in the way we should go?

Let’s ask the Lord to train our ears to hear the things of God today. We need to be listening for His direction in the hustle and bustle of this noisy and influential world or we will surely go astray!



<3, CASS.

11 February 2008

! at 11:12 PM !

CNY was good! :D Haha pretty good collection this year, what with the results having came out, my aunties and uncle decided to reward me with extra :D Quite a bit, I must say. Ah but I should have seen it coming, all the relatives are asking me what my plans are, where I want to go etc. I got tired of it after sometime, especially explaining why I chose to go to poly for 2nd choice despite my good grades. VJ's still my 1st choice though, the Arts! :D But I don't know if I can do child psychology and child related courses in uni if I managed to get into VJ. Oh wells, one thing's for certain, I want to do child related stuff in future, all the better if I can help kids with learning disabilities etc. But I'm a little afraid I'll lose patience :// I hope not, and I know the results take like, 10 years to appear. It takes very very long. But the satisfaction I'll get, I know it's worth more than any amount of money or time I've to put in! :D

Anyway, I finally managed to get my contacts. -.- I wanted to wear for CNY! And I only managed to get AFTER CNY ): How useful. Ah time flies. The posting's gonna come out soon, and by next week I won't be able to attend IJC anymore. I don't know if it's a good thing or bad thing, especially since I'll miss my class people ): But I don't really like JC life ): It's kinda... Boring. I get bored super easily. Which explains why I sleep in class almost all the time. Because I get bored ):

Chinese lessons are a killer these days. We've been watching movies, but both are chinese War movies! They're not bad honestly, but early in the morning? Nah, wasn't in the mood to watch people kill each other over a piece of land. I'll miss GP and Lit lessons though. They're the only two lessons I feel a surge of adrenaline rush whenever I need to attend! History's as usual, after 6 weeks, Raymond Yeo has done a fantastic job in leaving the question 'What is nationalism' in my head with no answer. That's all I've learnt from him for SEA. But I love IH, cold war is so interesting! :D Maths is as draggy as it can ever get and Econs is fabulously boring. Econs can be pretty interesting and would be such a lovely subject to study if not for the Maths involved. Ah wells.

I want to buy a pair of berms and a little miss tote bag for school! :D Heh. Shopping on Sunday, anyone? Oh! And I want to watch CJ7, P.S I Love You, 27 Dresses! Anyone wants to watch with me? I've got voucher for weekends and midnight shows! :D Oh, and I need to get a job.

Oh wells, I really need to get back to doing quiet time with a fire in my heart. During the CNY period, I was so bushed every single day I barely touched the cover of my Bible. ): I need to open and dive deep into the Word of God once again!

Alrighty, goodnight folks! :D



<3, CASS.

05 February 2008

! at 11:12 PM !

HELLO! Heh. I know it's been 10 years since I last updated. So much's been going on in life I don't even know where to begin. So many changes been happening, so many things have happened and I really don't know where to start thanking God for each and every one of them. Haha let's start with today's events. I koped from Si Cheng's blog, too lazy to type out my own version. It's in red :D

Cass and I crashed VJC today and LOL the entering part was super funny. We (actually it was just him, i had to pull him out, i tried telling him not to enter through the main gate, obviously he didn't hear the not to) tried to walk in through the main gate but the security guard suddenly popped out so we immediately pretended to divert and just walk straight, until we reached the bend and vanished out of sight. We were thinking oh dear shit what shall we do! then suddenly this group of joggers jogged past us so we trailed them LOL. They were jogging in the direction towards the main gate. So we jog jog jog past the gate beside the track and field and we jogged into the school conveniently!! LOL it was quite obvious but we still made it through alive.

Honestly, I felt like some agent on some mission, oh mann, I just thank God so much that we made it through alive! Hahaha I still can't believe we actually sneaked in like that, we must have been the first to do such a thing.

Anyway, loads of thanksgiving to do. God has been so good to me, especially in the last holiday, He gave me the chance to go abroad to Korea and Hong Kong, it was my first time taking the plane, it's so cool! And I got an Ipod Touch for birthday, I could go for youth camp etc. He has definitely rained blessings down upon me. Well, I was posted to Innova for first 6 weeks, wasn't keen on going at first but I decided to give it a try in the end. It's quite okay, I'm the only Christian in my class so I really pray that God will give me the strength I need if I ever have to stand up for my faith and to be a good testimony for Him. And then out comes the 'O's results, Crescent did well, as expected, average was 9.5 this year. And by God's grace, He gave me a 9. Honestly I never expected a single digit, yet I think I had hoped so much that when I realised I might not be able to get into VJ, my heart literally almost crushed. He has definitely taught me that what I hope or expect is second to His perfect plans for me, His ways are higher than mine. I'm still gonna appeal in though, I just hope I'll be able to get a copy of the children's musical in order to use it as part of my appeal. But I don't mind going into my 2nd choice, ngee ann poly (: Working with kids would be something really interesting. :D I really don't know how I got a1 for both lit and combined humanities, seeing as how I didn't finish my lit and ss essays, and for history, I totally just focused on the wrong topic and came out crying. But God has taught me to just trust in Him, and leave it all to Him. I was quite disappointed with my bio at first though, because I got b4 for both prelims and 'O's. I felt that I should have done better. But I think God has clearly shown me that although I like bio, it's not the subject He wants me to do. He has shown me that if I were to go JC, I should take arts. Before the results came out, I was really undecided whether I wanted to appeal to do science because I love bio and chem! And I really thank God for unfolding His perfect plan for me!

Other in school, I'm super involved in church activities now! :D God has allowed me to serve Him in the area of link, library, children's and powerpoint! Oh yeah, if anyone feels a burden to serve in either the link or powerpoint do tell me yeah! It's been real great, and I really pray that God will continue to use me. I've been doing quiet time regularly nowadays, it's been a lot a lot better. It's no longer just plain reading, I keep a notebook and jot down whichever verse speaks to me and I really reflect on it and see how it actually links to my life. It really helps and I feel like I'm no longer doing qt on a routine basis but now its on a I want to know how God's word actually relates to my life and what is He going to tell me. Qt is blowing my mind in ways I've never experienced before, and everytime I read a chapter and reflect seriously I just can't help but pause and marvel at the wonders of God's wisdom and the amount of truth the Bible speaks, it just awes and humbles me so much. I've never read the Bible like that before, and suddenly the Bible is so alive and real to me. Heavenly Father, thank You so much for bringing a revival in my heart, in my life. Lord You alone know how much I need You, and I thank You for meeting each and every one of my needs in such an amazing way.

Alright, think it's enough. Shalln't bore all of you out there. Heh, I'll do my best to update regularly, so all of you better come back and tag on my board! :D



<3, CASS.