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23 May 2009 ! at 9:25 PM ! Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, it doesn't mean that they don't love you with all that they have. (Tan, 2009) It's true, & it reminds me of the 5 different love languages that we all have. Germ, Cel, Sam & my mum are all quality time people, Hen's a gift girl, while Lyana & I are both words of affirmation lovers :D Gotta go find out Charm's & Rach's. & the rest of my friends! "So much held in a heart in a lifetime. So much held in a heart in a day, an hour, a moment. We are utterly open with no one, in the end -- not mother and father, not wife or husband, not lover, not child, not friend. We open windows to each but we live alone in the house of the heart. Perhaps we must. Perhaps we could not bear to be so naked, for fear of a constantly harrowed heart. When young we think there will come one person who will savor and sustain us always; when we are older we know this is the dream of a child, that all hearts finally are bruised and scarred, scored and torn, repaired by time and will, patched by force of character, yet fragile and rickety forevermore, no matter how ferocious the defense and how many bricks you bring to the wall. You can brick up your heart as stout and tight and hard and cold and impregnable as you possibly can and down it comes in an instant, felled by a woman's second glance, a child's apple breath, the shatter of glass in the road, the words I have something to tell you, a cat with a broken spine dragging itself into the forest to die, the brush of your mother's papery ancient hand in a thicket of your hair, the memory of your father's voice early in the morning echoing from the kitchen where he is making pancakes for his children." -- Brian Doyle (Tan, 2009) Reference List: Tan, J.L. (2009). MSN Conversation & Email. Singapore: Cassandra's computer screen. Okay I have no absolute idea how to reference an online source thus I'm using the book one. ALL JIANG LING'S FAULT LAH. Hahaha want me to reference her! -.- <3, CASS. 19 May 2009 ! at 1:02 AM ! I miss that show. Although it leaves me drained of what feels like 10 litres of tears, I still love it very very very much. It talks about a young teenage girl, one who's smart and full of dreams, who encounters this muscular degenerating disease, and how she fought her way to live. The very first time I watched it, I started crying from Episode 1 all the way to the ending. Every single episode I just had to cry. At the end of it all, when I finally finished, my mum commented the very next day that my eyes were at their puffiest yet. & they were ultra red. Although the show is extremely sad, it is also very inspiring. She even had to fight just to stay alive. She was always so cheerful, so optimistic. So full of love and gentleness to the people around her, so willing to sacrifice herself for others. How can I not cry? Watching how she fought to stay in her dream school and how she slowly learns that she has to give up on things that she love, like baskbetball and sports, it was definitely... Reflective. Sometimes in life, all of us take things for granted. Simple things like health, we've never really appreciated its value. It's just something that we always thought that it'll be there, yet we don't realize it till we lose it. I pray, dear God, that You'll teach & remind me to constantly value the simple things and luxury of life that I have. My air con broke down recently. ALL 3. My entire house is extremely warm & humid. Everyone's dying/melting lah please!!! Haha. But at least tonight's not as bad as last night's. I practically couldn't sleep last night lah. Kept waking up in perspiration every 2 hours :/// Thus I was late this morning for school D: Ah. I think this coming week's gonna be real packed. Alee & I were talking about Spanish names! Alicia's a Spanish name! D: So cool, I want one too! I don't mind Alita, I think it's pretty cool & cute! :D That's what I'm gonna name my daughter in future if I get one! OHOHOH. http://www.behindthename.com/php/view.php?name=cassandra Meaning of Cassandra! :D Ohoh. & I remembered that the Macmilian (SP?) Dictionary that we used in Secondary school had my name in it! COOL HUH! ;D Anyway. The camp over the weekend was... Okay lah eventually. Although I still think that it was quite a waste of time D: Haha. I only liked the Profiling part 'cause it was ultra cool. & a couple of suggested occupations for me were child care worker & counselor! Anyway, I'm an ENFJ. Haha it was on one of my previous posts, 'cause Marcus asked me to do. Haha! I entered the right field :D Haha. Hmm, the hold-candles-&-walk-for-very-long night walk was okay lah. I started talking to BS & I found out that she's involved in CIP with kids! So cool lah, so I signed up with her, & asked her to include me in future activities so that I can join if I'm free :D Although I don't know when I will be. HAHA. Oh then I liked the car-making part, it was quite cool, quite fun 'cause we all started to warm up a little more to each other & started working together. So not bad lah, but I highly doubt I formed any lasting friendships with any of them. It's like, a little weird seeing as how we might/most likely never work together anymore lah. HAHA. Nice to know a couple of new friends anyway. Okay. I wanna go sleep already. & I've got to get Samantha to stop watching 1 litre of tears soon. Otherwise I won't be able to sleep & I'll just watch on with her & cry! D: <3, CASS. 14 May 2009 ! at 1:39 AM ! In a normal typical day, how many times do we actually remember God? How often do we speak to Him, how often do we even think about our identity as Christians? A couple of times, perhaps. Meal times when we say grace. But, once again, has saying grace becomes something out of a habit or do we really mean it when we thank Him for once again providing us with food that many unfortunate others out there don't have? And just that few, spare moments with Him, is our relationship with Him even scarcely there? Maybe, I should use I instead. Is my relationship with Him just a 'touch and go' kinda relationship? Oh no, I hope not. Dear God please draw me back to You. Remind me constantly of my purpose in all that I do, that I do out of devotion, and not out of duty. & that of course, I'll place You above all else. I should be sleeping. Early class tomorrow. & PEP20 tomorrow. Had HMSS Exco meeting just now - Next post yeah? Eyelids are getting heavy already. Just had to jot down my sudden thoughts & reflections before i forget them. I've got S (x infinity) TM. D: <3, CASS. 13 May 2009 ! at 1:17 AM ! That fellow actually tried to predict what would happen on the 22nd/23rd may's dinner. I can't believe it lah. HAHAHA & his prediction claims that I will want to get into a relationship on the 23rd?! I SERIOUSLY ALMOST DIED LAUGHING PLEASE. & he & fiona got not-so-secret admirer on those 2 days?! HAHAHA I PROMISE I WILL NOT BE THE NOT-SO-SECRET ADMIRER FOR THE BOTH OF THEM!!! & I don't want to learn how to compromise & communicate! HAHAHA I think I'm doing that pretty well already! &&& poor Jasmine & Chu hui! Lots of love & romance in stored! HAHAHA. &&& darren also!!! HAHAHA WHAT CANDLE LIGHT DINNER ON 23RD MANN! Hahaha if we're gonna have the dinner on the 23rd then how is he gonna have a candle light dinner!!! OH MY GOODNESS LAH. ULTRA FUNNY. CANNOT STOP LAUGHING. HAHAHA!!! Okay okay. Get a grip on yourself Cassandra. HAHAHA I need to go to sleep soon. Seriously! Tomorrow still got attachment in the morning! HAHAHA OKAY. I'll update again. Another time. When I'm free xD NIGHTS PEOPLE!!! <3, CASS. 07 May 2009 ! at 10:47 AM ! [Verse:] No one sits with him, he doesn't fit in But we feel like we do when we make fun of him Cause you want to belong do you go along? Cause his pain is the price paid for you to belong It's not like you hate him or want him to die But maybe he goes home and thinks suicide Or he comes back to school with a gun at his side Any kindness from you might have saved his life [Tag:] Heroes are made when you make a choice [Chorus:] You could be a hero Heroes do what's right You could be a hero You might save a life You could be a hero You could join the fight For what's right For what's right For what's right [Verse:] No one talks to her, she feels so alone She's in too much pain to survive on her own The hurt she can't handle overflows to a knife She writes on her arm, wants to give up her life Each day she goes on is a day that she is brave Fighting the lie that giving up is the way Each moment of courage her own life she saves When she throws the pills out a hero is made [Tag] [Chorus] [Verse:] No one talks to him about how he lives He thinks that the choices he makes are just his Doesn't know he's a leader with the way he behaves And others will follow the choices he's made He lives on the edge, he's old enough to decide His brother who wants to be him is just nine He can do what he wants because it's his right The choices he makes change a nine year old's life [Chorus] [Rap] Little Mikey D. was the one in class who everyday got brutually harassed This went on for years until he decided that never again would he shed another tear So he walked through the door, grabbed a four four out of his father's dressing drawer And said I can't take life no more And like that life can be lost But this ain't even about that All of us just sat back and watched it happen Thinkin' it's not my responsibility to solve a problem that isn't about me This is our problem This is just one of the daily scenarios which we choose to close our eyes Instead of doing the right thing If we make a choice and be the voice for those who won't speak up for themselves How many lives would be saved, changed, rearranged Now it's our time to pick a side So don't keep walkin' by Not wantin' to intervene Cause you wanna exist and never be saved So let's wake up and change the world Our time is now [Chorus] My current favourite song. <3 Got this song a couple of years back. Dug it up recently ;D & Priscilla is peeping at me blogging now D; HAHAHA. <3, CASS. 01 May 2009 ! at 9:32 PM ! Haha, a good second week has passed! :D Ohoh. I think I've definitely made an impression on Philip Koh in DLE tutorial already. On the very first lesson, I accidentally phrased my words wrongly such that the entire meaningta was totally changed! :/// Like, super EMBARRASSING. Cannot mention here :X & I said it super loudly in class!!! :/// Oh wells. & on the 2nd lesson I was super blur. -.- Like, he sarcastically said that the picture of tangle of wires is a picture of a game. & for a moment, I actually really believed him. & exclaimed loudly enough for the whole class to know that. SMART. Anyway l embarrassed myself again yesterday. HAHAHA. 2B01 IS THE BEST. SERIOUSLY! After FP mass briefing, the RTRC people had prepared old chang kee snacks & packet drinks. We were all supposed to take one set each. HAHAHA. Most of the people refused to hang around to wait & get the food & drinks. So there were plently left! I can't believe what we did. We didn't intentionally hang around, we were just chatting & all. Okay I was with Shurong 'cause she was staying over at my place. That was when I realised that Latifah, Daphne, Shuwen, Rui Jing, Jieling I think, Yvonne. Eh. I think that's all. Ohoh, got this year one guy called fidaous (sp? ://) also. Anyway. Main point was that RJ & I were like typical Singaporean aunties! HAHAHA. THE REST ALSO LOR. JUST THAT RJ & I WERE... A LITTLE MORE ;D Haha anyway. Story goes that there was too much food & drinks left behind. So 2B01 happily stayed back to eat it for dinner. & RJ took a whole box of springrolls home!!! HAHAHA. We then attacked the drinks, taking a few packets at first. I packed 4 into my schoolbag. Then! I saw RJ taking a whole carton home!!! HAHAHA. Of course cannot lose to her lah. So I took the whole carton of mango drinks! SUPER FUNNY LAH. So I carried the whole carton of mango drinks, schoolbag & laptop to the atrium, paused for RJ to borrow books & for us to rest. Met Sophie & her fello ECH classmates. They were paiseh to the max lah. HAHAHA! Especially that cheerleading (I think) guy. Haha, don't know what's his name lah. Continued carrying all the drinks & all to the bus stop where I met Vanessa & donated one whole tube of mango drinks to her! HAHAHA thank God man! Otherwise I think my arms might just break :x bus-ed home with Shurong. Hahaha. FUNNY TRIP HOME. But still! SUPER PAISEH. :X MOST EMBARRASSING THING I EVER DID IN MY ENTIRE LIFE! From NP at least! HAHAHA! But on hindsight it was worth it lah. All the joys, fun & laughter we shared in smuggling the drinks home & attempting to not look like we got it for free & were 'aunties'! <3 2 B01! I died during Tuesday's training. STUPID ANTI-MALARIA PILLS. STUPID DOXY CYCLINE. Wed was fun! Haha. Met Amirah in school in the late afternoon to go donate blood together. Well. Turns out that I couldn't do it 'cause I'm still on the dumb pills. & Amirah, after doing check-up etc etc, found out that she couldn't donate too 'cause her vein was slanted or something. HAHAHA. Poor things lah us. Anyway. Met up with Jiatru for lunch, just like what I did on Tuesday. We're both addicted to the 'One Pot' stall at Makan Place. HEH. Niceeeeee. Anyway, saw Teresa along the way, 1st time I saw her since school restarted! Okay. Nothing to be excited over. HAHAHA. Chatted a little then I did lunch with Jiatru. Then I went to blk 7 just to get money from Auyong. Medical claim from the YEP Vietnam trip. Which I'm supposed to blog about. :// Well, Auyong then told us to go to Makan Place area to get a lift to the Touch Centre. Which turns out that there wasn't any space left for Qingping, Tammie & I. So Auyong paid for us to take a cab there ;DDD HAHAHA. OHOH. I switched with Kaizhi to pair up with Minah! Hidayah lah ;D We were supposed to deliver to 3 blocks, 2, 5 & 15. When you have 2 girls together, they'll die due to a lack of ability to read maps. HAHAHA. Well we found 2 & 5 on the map, but then we couldn't find block 15. So I smartly concluded that it was hidden beneath the landscape of the other buildings. Such as some CC thingy near blocks 16 & 17! Heh. So I highlighted an invisible place and declared it as block 15 on my own. D: SMART EH. Haha anyway, thank God we finally managed to find the right place, after lots & lots of help & asking around! I think I'll miss MOW (meals on wheels) after the next & last session! ))): Oh. Everyone took like, less than an hour to complete their deliveries, but Minah & I took like, more than an hour, almost 2 hours! Ohoh, & this old indian man tried to tell us his story too. Like how he was living in the Jap Occupation time & how he's an orphan, & how he wants to go to Melaka (I think) to live 'cause he has a friend there. & he kept offering us money -.- Such a cute old man. Hahaha. Met Puii for dinner after that. Ichiban nearly tore a hole in my wallet. :X Oh but I made her wait an hour for me 'cause I ended my MOW late. We caught up a lot a lot, missed her like mad. (: I think the meet-up helped me to know her better as an individual, to know her even better personally, instead of a person in our clique. I think the both of us have grown up in our own ways, we're both more vocal & active in school now, instead of sleeping it all away. Haha. Okay, I was active in Crescent lah, but I'm a whole lot more vocal now. More certain of what I want out of my short poly life. Puii's taking on leadership roles 'cause the rest of her class is like... Lousy. But she's... stepping out of her comfort zone? Haha I don't know. Much as she has changed/grew up, I still love her (: Okay. I shall blog about Vietnam & Teengames another day. Too long a post already! I think I took a couple of hours to type this entire thing out lah! Okay lah, I was multi-tasking ;D <3, CASS. |