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31 July 2008 ! at 12:58 AM ! Father, I'm sorry, I've fallen away. In times of weakness, I've chosen to say, Let me go, Let me wallow, Despairing in sorrow. But You held my hand and say, My child, I love you so. How can I let you go? I will forgive you, I will be with you. My child, I love you so. You are worth more than gold. I will not leave you, Never forsake you. The road is so rough, I can't see the way. I know I'm not tough, I've chosen to say, Let me go, Let me wallow, Despairing in sorrow. But You held my hand and say, My child, I love you so. How can I let you go? I will forgive you, I will be with you. My child, I love you so. You are worth more than gold. I will not leave you, Never forsake you. Sudden inspiration. Haha. I don't know, maybe 'cause lately I do feel a little... far from Him. A little empty, perhaps I've been too caught up in the whirl of school projects lately. Well, in a way "My child, I love you so"'s a song, had a sudden inspiration to sing a little tune to it. But when i came to the chorus I felt a sense of comfort, knowing that God's telling me He loves me, and how He'll never le me go, holding on to me tightly for all eternity. I lost my phone on monday ): I think it's been stolen. <3, CASS. 28 July 2008 ! at 8:16 AM ! "No issue's perfect" (Chiawen, 2008). Heh quoted from the assistant editor using APA referencing style. Haha partly lah, can't remember her surname so I used her name. Well, yup as usual, this issue's got its own little hipcups here and there. Ah, my degeneration of English and fatigue was evidently displayed under the editor's note! Shalln't, haha a new word I invented. Well, on Sat I went to Crescent early in the morning for Speech day, I got the Bronze award :D And then to Ngee Ann for the parents' forum with my mum. She met all my lecturers and talked etc. I got good reputation and feedback from all my teachers :DDD Haha, but it was fun lah, joking with the teachers and all (: Went to the ECH alumni gathering where Priscilla won a Lumix Camera!!! But th e gathering was quite fun lah, some of the food was GOOD! Heh, and then Daph and I started dancing around on our own when they played the Sway song! Sway When marimba rhythms start to play Dance with me, make me sway Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore Hold me close, sway me more Like a flower bending in the breeze Bend with me, sway with ease When we dance you have a way with me Stay with me, sway with me Other dancers may be on the floor Dear, but my eyes will see only you Only you have the magic technique When we sway I go weak I can hear the sound of violins Long before it begins Make me thrill as only you know how Sway me smooth, sway me now Other dancers may be on the floor Dear, but my eyes will see only you Only you have the magic technique When we sway I go weak I can hear the sound of violins Long before it begins Make me thrill as only you know how Sway me smooth, sway me now You know how Sway me smooth, sway me now Oh mann, how I love this song! Haha it makes me wanna dance and sway along, forgetting everything else, indulging myself in the sheer pleasures of dancing with a loved one in this romantic number. Haha I love the rumba-jazzy feeling to this song too (: Went to VIBE after that (: the food there was GOOD too! Haha, met some new friends and played games (: Yesterday was Sicheng's birthday! (: Happy birthday! Haha Jiahao, Daniel, Gordan, James and Haniel were the masterminds behind our sudden appearance at his house to ambush and sabo him on his birthday! Haha, they gave out things for people to pour all over him! I poured a cup full of slurpee on him, and the rose syrup! It made him look like he was bleeding profusely or something. Haha, his shirt was practically ruin by the mixture of all the drinks. Got him an awfully chocolate cake, met Taby (sp?) at the Awfully Chocolate shop near his house. I was so surprised! But she was so nice lah!!! Gave me a free scoop :DDD Hahaha, Singyi and I must go and eat Awfully Chocolate ice cream again! Ooh and I want an awfully chocolate cake too! It's so delicious!!! Although I think the chocolate banana cake at secret recipe's GOOD too! Haha anyway, we went into his house where Lynnshan and I found out about the mountain joke, and we saw all the posters his sister made of him! Haha super funny lah! Left his place at around 6 plus? Yeah, after a few photos and cutting of cake etc. Went back home with Sam for dinner and slacked around. Couldn't do work anyway, Sam and Hen hogged the com. ): Yeah, that sums it all, my weekend in general. (: Things to do! 1. 15 page essay on basketball - S&W >:/// 2. FP project! :/ 3. English mock! PRACTICE! 4. Study for CDEV & PPCM! <3, CASS. 22 July 2008 ! at 4:51 PM ! Went blading on Sat ;D I could barely open my eyes as I boarded 67 to Bedok. All the way from CCK. An hour plus journey! Well, naturally I just went to sleep on the bus ;D To my dismay, my iPod ran out of batt at the beginning of the journey! ): Endured the journey without music. Haha. Cabbed from Bedok MRT all the to ECP. Martha, Ner and Zenia were there already. Martha tried to teach me how to blade. After that, the twins came round and Pam and Pearl too! Pam was the only one riding the bike. Haha it was fun, and I'm proud to say I've mastered... about 80% of blading :D Better than nothing! Although occassional screams still escape my lips when I panick, especially when I go faster than usual! It's a little scary still though, but I'm looking forward to mastering it and being able to blade like others! I think I just lack confidence as well, just like when I tried to learn skating. Ah, to feel the cool breeze weave in and out of my hair, it'll be so relaxing. (: Woke up to the calls of back aches all over my body on Sunday morning. Was planning to watch 10 Promises To My Dog after church with Meishan and Kailing, but they wanted to watch Black Knight. I wasn't so keen to watch it, but since they were going to watch then I decided that I'll probably go watch with them too. Well, Kenneth msged the sabre fencers that morning after 1st service. There was gonna be a sabre dinner that night. I decided in the end to join them, especially since I've been so out of touch with all the fencers. Had about 17 bucks with me after I went with a whole bunch of church people to eat ice cream at Swirl. And the dinner was 18 bucks. Felt so embarrassed! :// Well, I had a good time getting to know them slightly better. And just when I thought I finally have a chance to resume training and finally bond with them, disaster struck on Monday. Anyway, went home after the steamboat dinner since I was broke. Disaster struck on Monday in the form of another sprain. Sprained my ankle again just when I was going out of my house to go to school. I was walking down the front steps when I stepped on my Dad's slippers and tripped, causing me to once more sprain my right ankle. At least another one month or so before I can go for fencing again. I'll go and explain to them on Thurs training, I feel so bad lah. Ever since I started doing sports as my CCA, I've been spraining my ankle! Sam and Hen figured that God's probably telling me not to enter the realm of sports, what nonsense! Haha but oh wells, hope I'll get well soon and will be able to resume training asap. Really do miss training! When I go back my fitness level will be so low as compared to the rest ): Ah, more and more projects. ): Pris said I've got a C+ for my essay. Bad mooding. ): BUCK UP CASSANDRA!!! I really need my GPA to be 4! ): <3, CASS. 16 July 2008 ! at 3:13 PM ! Lyrics by Brendan Graham The wheels of life keep turning, Spinning without control. The wheels of the heart keep yearning For the sound of the singing soul; And nights are full with weeping For sins of the past we've sown But tomorrow is ours for the keeping Tomorrow the future's shown. CHORUS: Lift your eyes and see the glory, Where the circle of life is drawn; See the never-ending story, Come with me to the gates of dawn. And whose is the hand who rises The sun from the heaving sea? The power that ever amazes We look, but never will see. Who scattered the seeds so life could be, Who coloured the fields of corn? Who formed the mould that made me Before the world was born? CHORUS: Lift your eyes and see the glory, Where the circle of life is drawn; See the never-ending story, Come with me to the gates of dawn. Lift your eyes and see the glory, Where the circle of life is drawn; See the never-ending story, Come with me to the gates of dawn. All our music is written as instrumentals, but some of the melodies naturally lend themselves to words. This piece was originally arranged as a simple folk-tone, but gradually started to shape-change, asserting itself into a vocal song. Brendan Graham's imagery and Karen Matheson's vocal (recorded in Capercaillie's studio in Glasgow), transport us to the Gates of dawn, where we are imbued with a sense of wonder and spiritually uplifted out of the ordinary of life. The simple chorus, with its sing-along melody, contrasts with the distant, dawn chorus of the middle-part, performed by Anúna. - found it off the website. I love this soothing instrumental song. Hope, joy and peace, all intertwined with the melody. Indeed, it puts me into a much lighter mood, I love this part: And whose is the hand who rises The sun from the heaving sea? The power that ever amazes We look, but never will see. Who scattered the seeds so life could be, Who coloured the fields of corn? Who formed the mould that made me Before the world was born? Because I know the answer (: As the girl sang this part, the questions floated among my thoughts, and with a smile I answered God in my mind. It's so amazing. I love such quiet songs, allowing me moments of relections and a glimpse into my deeper thoughts, usually untouched. The 'gates of dawn' in this song brings to mind the gates of Heaven, made of white pearls. What a beautiful sight that'll be to behold! As usual, I've missed S&W again. All thanks to flu. I'm like so >:/ angry. It's infuriating lah. And I've to make up so many lessons and not like there's many other lessons left ): I'm more and more accident prone. Scratched my knee against some hard/sharp part of my sofa. -.- Now it hurts. Ah wells. Not much to update. Though I feel bad 'cause I keep missing fencing practices due to sprained ankle (over and over again), flu, and diving training next week. Argh. I hope they don't think I'm not treating fencing seriously. Because I am. Just that I can't. ): Alrighty, better get some Field Practicum homework done before I go for Spanish. Presentation's later :// Hopefully I'll score. Spent the whole of last night on it. Thank God I couldn't go for fencing, otherwise I wouldn't have time to do it. ;D Good news ;D I scored full marks for English's pop quiz just now! ;DDD Thank God so much it was open book quiz, I didn't even read the article beforehand! Thank God so much, I messed up my last English test, so at least this pop quiz which is counted towards participation is secured. ;D Ryan Cabrera's True is stuck in my head. (: <3, CASS. 15 July 2008 ! at 1:34 PM ! My new fave smiley: ;D Heh, somehow I find it really cute! ;DDD Anyway, microteaching later. Ah, pretty nervous. Hopefully I'll score well, really need to pull my grades up. Hungry now though :/ Oh yeah, argh I've got to quickly finish up my Spanish project! Presentation's tomorrow :/ And then, I've got 2 more projects to complete! School's real busy, coupled with famiy committments (which is like, finishing my tvb hong kong dramas). And major exams are coming up by mid august, thank God so much I've only got 2 papers. Sem 1's coming to an end... How time really flies. Finally bought my new earpiece! Same as the previous one, Philips, heh I miss the interchangeable coloured caps ;D Abba's thank you for the music's stuck in my head. Love the catchy tune ;D <3, CASS. 10 July 2008 ! at 9:37 PM ! I dreamed I was in heaven where an angel kept God's book. He was writing so intently I just had to take a look. It was not, at first, his writing that made me stop and think. But the fluid in the bottle that was marked eternal ink. This ink was most amazing, dark black upon his blotter. But as it touched the parchment it became as clear as water. The angel kept on writing, but as quickly as a wink. The words were disappearing with that strange eternal ink. The angel took no notice, but kept writing on and on. He turned each page and filled it till all its space was gone. I thought he wrote to no avail, His efforts were so vain. For he wrote a thousand pages that he'd never read again. And as I watched and wondered that this awesome sight was mine, I actually saw a word stay black as it dried upon the line. The angel wrote and I thought I saw a look of satisfaction. At last he had some print to show for all his earnest action. A line or two dried dark and stayed as black as black can be, But strangely the next paragraph became invisible to see. The book was getting fuller, the angel's records true, But most of it was blank, with just a few words coming through. I knew there was some reason, but as hard as I could think, I couldn't grasp the significance of that eternal ink. The mystery burned within me, and I finally dared to ask The angel to explain to me of his amazing task. And what I heard was frightful as the angel turned his head. He looked directly at me and this is what he said... "I know you stand and wonder at what my writing's worth, But God has told me to record the lives of those on earth. The book that I am filling is an accurate account Of every word and action and to what they do amount. And since you have been watching I must tell you what is true; The details of my journal are the strict accounts of YOU." "The Lord asked me to watch you as each day you worked and played. I saw you as you went to church, I saw you as you prayed. But I was told to document your life through all the week. I wrote when you were proud and bold, I wrote when you were meek." "I recorded all your attitudes whether they were good or bad. I was sorry that I had to write the things that make God sad. So now I'll tell the wonder of this eternal ink, For the reason for its mystery should make you stop and think." "This ink that God created to help me keep my journal Will only keep a record of things that are eternal. So much of life is wasted on things that matter not So instead of my erasing, smudging ink and ugly blot." "I just keep writing faithfully and let the ink do all the rest For it is able to decide what's useless and what's best. And God ordained that as I write of all you do and say Your deeds that count for nothing will just disappear away." "When books are opened someday, as sure as heaven is true; The Lord's eternal ink will tell what mattered most to you. If you just lived to please yourself the pages will be bare, And God will issue no reward for you when you get there." "In fact, you'll be embarrassed, you will hang your head in shame Because you did not give yourself in love to Jesus' Name. Yet maybe there will be a few recorded lines that stayed That showed the times you truly cared, sincerely loved and prayed." "But you will always wonder as you enter heaven's door How much more glad you would have been if only you'd done more. For I record as God sees, I don't stop to even think. Because the truth is written with God's eternal ink." When I heard the angel's story I fell down and wept and cried. For as yet I still was dreaming I hadn't really died. And I said: "Oh, angel tell the Lord that soon as I awake. I'll live my life for Jesus- I'll do all for His dear sake." "I'll give in full surrender; I'll do all He wants me to; I'll turn my back on self and sin and whatever isn't true. And though the way seems long and rough I promise to endure. I'm determined to pursue the things that are holy, clean and pure." "With Jesus as my helper, I will win lost souls to Thee, For I know that they will live with Christ for all eternity. And that's what really matters when my life on earth is gone That I will stand before the Lord and hear Him say, well done." For is it really worth it as my life lies at the brink? And I realize that God keeps books with His eternal ink. Should all my life be focused on things that turn to dust? From this point on I'll serve the Lord; I can, I will, I must! I will NOT send blank pages up to God's majestic throne For where that record's going now is my eternal home. I'm giving all to Jesus I now have seen the link For I saw an angel write my life with God's eternal ink. By: Craig F. Pitts Something for every one of us to think and ponder upon (: Ah, guess what. I twisted my ankle yet once more yesterday during S&W. Argh. And I'll have to do make up lessons. Had APA referencing test yesterday. I didn't finish the paper on time. I'm like, so pissed with myself. I was lah. I was so angry, it was an open book test and I literally just lost marks because I couldn't finish on time. And after English test, I rushed off to Spanish lesson, only to be greeted with another test. >< I suppose Spanish test was pretty okay. Hopefully I'll score a little. Winnie told us our PPCM test marks range today. About half of the class got 40 plus. I remembered I only studied the morning before the test. Literally killed myself again by getting only 30 plus. With rest of half of the class. And 2 of my classmates got full marks. Argh, cassandra, you really need to put in more effort to bring your grades up. Otherwise, don't mention about Director's List, you won't even be top of the level for any of your modules. :// I'm so scared for Karuna's test! I know it was actually super straight forward, but guess what. I didn't study because I forgot all about it till the week before. I'm getting a little more stressed already. What more, I really cannot disappoint my family and especially ah yee, she's like sponsering me to study whatever I want in NP. And she paid for my diving trip etc. Had ITA test this morning. It was pretty okay, skipped a couple of steps here and there 'cause I didn't know how to convert what to what. Aye. IT's never been my forte. On the contrary, it has been my nemesis since Crescent days. Didn't go for training today 'cause I went to the Chinese doctor instead. Ah, they did tui na on my sprained ankle, and on Sam's one too 'cause she sprained hers too. It was so painful! :/// It feels slightly better, I suppose. Ah saw the Mark Lee and Jeff Wang travel round the world show just now. They went to Italy! Ahh makes me wanna go too! But I wanna go Spain first still :D Just seeing the rich culture on TV glued me to my seat. The guys just started singing for fun on TV and all, something I wish Singaporeans would do. Not think about embarrassing themselves, but to let loose and have fun doing silly things like that. I think these are the things that makes life fun and silly :D Ah I've caught the flu bug again. Nasty thing, that little bugger. >< Diving's trip postponed, somehow I feel a little relieved, starting to fear the deep blue sea a little at the thought of going down :/ <3, CASS. 08 July 2008 ! at 7:18 PM ! I sat, with two friends, in the picture window of a quaint restaurant just off the corner of the town-square. The food and the company were both especially good that day.As we talked, my attention was drawn outside, across the street. There, walking into town, was a man who appeared to be carrying all his worldly goods on his back. He was carrying, a well-worn sign that read, 'I will work for food.' My heart sank. I brought him to the attention of my friends and noticed that others around us had stopped eating to focus on him. Heads moved in a mixture of sadness and disbelief.We continued with our meal, but his image lingered in my mind. We finished our meal and went our separate ways. I had errands to do and quickly set out to accomplish them. I glanced toward the town square, looking somewhat halfheartedly for the strange visitor. I was fearful,knowing that seeing him again would call some response. I drove through town and saw nothing of him I made some purchases at a store and got back in my car. Deep within me, the Spirit of God kept speaking to me: 'Don't go back to the office until you've at least driven once more around the square.' Then with some hesitancy, I headed back into town. As I turned the square's third corner, I saw him. He was standing on the steps of the store front church, going through his sack.I stopped and looked; feeling both compelled to speak to him, yet wanting to drive on. The empty parking space on the corner seemed to be a sign from God: an invitation to park. I pulled in, got out and approached the town's newest visitor. 'Looking for the pastor?' I asked. 'Not really,' he replied, 'just resting.' 'Have you eaten today?' 'Oh, I ate something early this morning.' 'Would you like to have lunch with me?' 'Do you have some work I could do for you?' 'No work,' I replied. 'I commute here to work from the city, but I would like to take you to lunch.' 'Sure,' he replied with a smile.As he began to gather his things, I asked some surface questions. Where you headed? '' St. Louis '' Where you from? ''Oh, all over; mostly Florida '' How long you been walking? ''Fourteen years,'' came the reply. I knew I had met someone unusual. We sat across from each other in the same restaurant I had left earlier His face was weathered slightly beyond his 38 years. His eyes were dark yet clear, and he spoke with an eloquence and articulatio n that was startling. He removed his jacketto reveal a bright red T-shirt that said, 'Jesus is The Never Ending Story.' Then Daniel's story began to unfold. He had seen rough times early in life. He'd made some wrong choices and reaped the consequences. Fourteen years earlier, while backpacking across the country, he had stopped on the beach in Daytona. He tried to hire on with some men who were putting up a large tent and some equipment. A concert, he thought.He was hired, but the tent would not house a concert but revival services, and in those services he saw life more clearly He gave his life over to God. 'Nothing's been the same since,' he said, 'I felt the Lord tel ling me to keep walking, and so I did, some 14 years now. ''Ever think of stopping?' I asked. 'Oh, once in a while, when it seems to get the best of me. But God has given me this calling I give out Bibles. That's what's in my sack. I work to buy food and Bibles, and I give them out when His Spirit leads.' I sat amazed. My homeless friend was not homeless.. He was on a mission and lived this way by choice. The question burned inside for a moment and then I asked: 'What's it like?' 'What? ' 'To walk into a town carrying all your things on your back and to show your sign?' 'Oh, it was humiliating at first. People would stare and make comments. Once someone tossed a piece of half-eaten bread and made a gesture that certainly didn't make me feel welcome. But then it became humbling to realize that God was using me to touch lives and change people's concepts of other folks like me.' My concept was changing, too. We finished our dessert and gathered his things. Just outside the door, he paused. He turned to me and said, 'Come Ye blessed of my Father and inherit the kingdom I've prepared for you. For when I was hungry you gave me food, when I was thirsty you gave me drink, a stranger and you took me in.' I felt as if we were on holy ground. 'Could you use another Bible?' I asked. He said he preferred a certain translation. It traveled well and was not too heavy. It was also his personal favorite. 'I've read through it 14 times,' he said.'I'm not sure we've got one of those, but let's stop by our church and see' I was able to find my new friend a Bible that would do well, and he seemed very grateful. 'Where are you headed from here?' I asked. 'Well, I found this little map on the back of this amusement park coupon.' 'Are you hoping to hire on there for awhile?' 'No, I just figure I should go there. I figure someone under that star right there needs a Bible, so that's where I'm going next.' He smiled, and the warmth of his spirit radiated the sincerity of his mission. I drove him back to the town-square where we'd met two hours earlier, and as we drove, it started raining. We parked and unloaded his things.'Would you sign my autograph book?' he asked. 'I like to keep messages from folks I meet.' I wrote in his little book that his commitment to his calling had touched my life. I encouraged him to stay strong. And I left him with a verse of scripture from Jeremiah, 'I know the plans I have for you, declared the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you; Plans togive you a future and a hope.' 'Thanks, man,' he said. 'I know we just met and we're really just strangers, but I love you.' 'I know,' I said, 'I love you, too.' 'The Lord is good!' 'Yes, He is. How long has it been since someone hugged you?' I asked. 'A long time,' he replied. And so on the busy street corner in the drizzling rain, my new friend and I embraced, and I felt deep inside that I had been changed. He put his things on his back, smiled his winning smile and said, 'See you in the New Jerusalem.' 'I'll be there!' was my reply. He began his journey again. He headed away with his sign dangling from his bedroll and pack of Bibles. He stopped, turned and said, 'When you see something that makes you think of me, will you pray for me?' 'You bet,' I shouted back, 'God bless.' 'God bless.' And that was the last I saw of him. Late that evening as I left my office, the wind blew strong. The cold front had settled hard upon the town. I bundled up and hurried to my car. As I sat back and reached for the emergency brake, I saw them... a pair of well-worn brown work gloves neatly laid over the length of the handle. I picked them up and thought of my friend and wondered if his hands would stay warm that night without them. Then I remembered his words: 'If you see something that makes you think of me, will you pray for me?'Today his gloves lie on my desk in my office. They help me to see the world and its people in a new way, and they help me remember those two hours with my unique friend and to pray for his ministry. 'See you in the New Jerusalem,' he said. Yes, Daniel, I know I will...If this story touched you, forward it to a friend!'I shall pass this way but once. Therefore, any good that I can do or any kindness that I can show, let me do it now, for I shall not pass this way again. 'This prayer is powerful and there is nothing attached Please do not break this pattern. Prayer is one of the best gifts we receive. There is no cost but a lot of rewards. Let's continue to pray for one another. God bless and have a nice day! 'Father, I ask you to bless my friends, relatives and e-mail buddies reading this right now. Show them a new revelation of your love and power. Holy Spirit, I ask you to minister to their spirit at this very moment. Where there is pain, give them your peace and mercy. Where there is self-doubt, release a renewed confidence through your grace, In Jesus' precious Name Amen.' I sent this to more than four, but this story is so touching I felt each of you would enjoy it greatly. GOD BLESS YOU MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY hope it blessed your heart too, update more later, dinner's here! <3, CASS. 05 July 2008 ! at 11:07 PM ! Been thinking a lot about the Link ministry. The meeting on friday was good, loads of feedback, suggestions on how to improve etc all came flowing in. Although I left feeling slightly stresser than before the meeting, I know God will just work things out in His time. A half-cut watermelon came crashing down on Jiahao's head yesterday night too :D Haha too bad, his birthday mah. THANK GOD I'M A GIRL :DDD Haha! Oh yeah, was supposed to donate blood on friday afternoon too! But the medical screening showed that my blood pressure was too low, perhaps due to dehyration. Thus I was deemed unsuitable for blood donation. ): But I still wore the 'First time blood donation' sticker around. Heh 'cause it said "Be nice to me. This is my first donation." Everybody's got to be nice to me! Late Friday afternoon was a blast with Sing Yi lah! She's like the closest and probably only friend I have in fencing :D We went to Awfully Chocolate and hung around for like 2 hours? Haha and she's crazy lah, she ate like 5 and 1/2 scoops of dark chocolate ice cream! I had 3 and 1/2 though :D I was super full after that. In that 2 hours we entertained ourselves and our new friend (the person working there)! We took super a lot of pictures, loads of silly poses and acting stupid. Haha and we signed up for working there in the holidays! Cool eh, one trip to an ice cream parlor and we might just land ourselves a holiday job! Anyway, the ice cream there is absolutely delectable if you love DARK CHOCOLATE. Sing Yi and I were just swooning over the ice cream! But the price was kinda high ): Well, for a pretty classy ice cream parlour like that, I should have guess the price. But other than that we had a jolly good time. :D Diving practical today. Mixture of feelings towards it lah. Well I may or may not be able to go this coming weekend. Pretty pessimistic about the situation but... I can only leave it in God's hands to decide whether He wants me to go or not. It depends whether I can get another pool session this week to learn the finning techniques properly. My BC was basically too big for my but the only other smaller ones are really tiny, so I couldn't wear. And my bouyancy was a little bit of a problem. I don't know, perhaps the weights weren't properly adjusted around my waist, thus causing me to always tilt to the left ): I nearly died at the swimming pool though. Nah, not so bad lah. But I also had a bit of difficulty with basic swimming. Maybe it's just fear coupled with nervousness. Normally I'm a lot better, as in I can swim a little more smoothly. I hate the flippers though. I can barely walk and all. And I'm super not confident of just striding into the water from the boat and all. Plus, I still can't really control my directions and all. Argh. I need to get used to the pressure my ear gets everytime I go underwater. I'm so afraid I'll hear a loud pop and there goes my eardrums, they've bursted. Scary. Nonethless, it was fun overall, and an interesting experience to dive into a swimming pool. :D A little at a loss as to what to do with my small group. But press on Cassandra, for His glory! Visited the SGLs blog just now. The tagboard was pretty lively a while ago. I feel a little... Or maybe quite a bit, ashamed of myself. Seeing the progress of my fellow SGLs' Bible reading process, I think I'm being a little left behind. Quiet Time's still a little inconsistent with me. But grace Lord, give me grace and strength to do it faithfully every norning. Reading their progress makes me want to read more daily. I shall try out doing morning and evening then. Argh. And I need a new earpiece. Current one's spoiling. MONEY ): Okay, pretty tired now, must be the diving. Goodnight. <3, CASS. 03 July 2008 ! at 10:49 AM ! School's started for a week plus now. Last week was crazily busy, what with assignments and the Link coming out that week. Last Saturday was exceptionally, frightening? Yeah somewhere along those lines. It was literally attack after attack from Satan I suppose. But I believe that it was through that that God showed Himself strong and prevailed, as always :D I had my first diving theory lesson last Saturday! :D Haha it was fun, but I missed like, 45 mins of the lesson ): Well I was rushing out the link and all. Plus, Samantha sprained her ankle again like me, but it was much more serious. There was internal bleeding apparently. Yup, super a lot of problems came, like waves one after another, crashing at my feet. But God solved them all in His time. In His time, indeed. (: Diving Practical lesson this Saturday! Oh mann, I'm so scared for it! I really hope I can pass the test :// I'm super worried for it. Hmph, I really shouldn't worry about it. ): I can't wait to go diving! Went back to fencing this week :D I've missed it so much despite the daily muscles aches! I've decided to join Sabre, partly 'cause it's the fastest and I love fast challenges, partly 'cause there's only one girl and I feel a little bad for her, and partly 'cause all my fencing friends are in Sabre :D Yesterday's training was tough, nonetheless. Perhaps 'cause I think I'm a pretty competative person, I love challenging new boundaries and pushing myself. I suppose that's why despite it being tough, I still love trainings. Major exams coming up in about a month's time. And I've still got a couple of projects to do too. I'll need to manage my time well. Yesterday I sang Wait On The Lord on my own before doing Quiet Time. It was really a blessing to my heart. The lyrics, they spoke to my needs and desires, and I just felt so soothed as I sang it, as though my Heavenly Father was singing to me, telling me to wait upon Him, and let Him do things in His time. It was so encouraging, this sense of unexplanable joy and peace, a comfort from Him above. (: Anyway, I'm so blessed by serving in the Link Ministry. So many thoughts come across my mind (rest assured, none's about quiting :D ), haha, mainly it's about how the Link can be more than just a youth newsletter. I feel there's more to it than 16 pages of report about the youth's activities. Something's lacking, perhaps the impact is meant to be bigger. I don't know, I'm still searching for God's answer. But He definitely has told me that something has to be done, something more. And it's such a blessing to serve in the Link. Since I've joined the ministry I've seen God worked so much! Okay, I need to go. Lunch time! I was typing this during ITA :D I really need You, Father. <3, CASS. |