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30 March 2008 ! at 5:55 PM ! Church camp was great, the games and the fellowship we had simply blew my mind! But on the last night I got bitten by mosquitoes all over my face! I had around 30 bites on my face ): And there were quite a bit on my arms too. My left eyelid was swollen, some insect bit it. But nonetheless it was a camp worth reminiscing about (: Sports camp was great as well! I love Kaji! :D Haha, it was fun meeting new friends and all. And I think I might want to join Volleyball, seems like an interesting sport. My mum used to play Volleyball too! Haha I bet I've got the Volleyball talent blood running through my veins now! :D I'm super tanned, but surprisingly I didn't get sunburnt. Played a lot of new wacky gross games which I believe the youths would like! Haha shall tell the games to the next games team master for the next camp! It'll be so fun! The last night of sports camp was like okayyy at first. The lights were turned off and there was music blasting, turning the hall into a place for clubbing in an instant. I was pretty sick of watching all the guys perform the same stunts though. After a while Germaise and I found Lyana and Eileen. Haha and the crescent girls danced on our own. I had more fun then. But overall, the camp was great (: This month's link took me on a ride of emotions! I was pretty laidback at first, a bad habbit I have to change. I kept thinking that it's okay, I still have time. I planned and planned, but not much action was taken. God taught me something really important. Planning's nothing without prayer. Sadly, my March was filled with activities, yet many a time I forgot to spare some time to come back to my Savior. It was heart-wrenching for Him I know, to see me putting off my quiet time again and again. Each time the Holy Spirit told me, Hey Cass, it's time to do your quiet time for today. Yet each time, I excused myself, coming up with lousy excuses I know were just plain rubbish. Doing the link has taught me a lot of things. Time management's simply one of the most important things. When school starts, I'm so afraid that I won't be able to cope with both school and church. But I don't want to give up church, I don't want to be slack with my studies either. Teresa said a sentence which lifted my spirits, she said, Honor God and He'll honor you. It was definitely comforting to hear that. By the time the last friday night of the month came around, I was in a panick. I didn't know what to do, what with 6 pages not done out of the 16-paged booklet, and 1 article not even in yet. I had to print it by the next morning. And then Ian did something that made my heart skipped a beat at youth; he announced to everyone that the Link was going to come out that very Sunday, which is today. Almost immediately, I felt the pressure and stress taking its toll on me. I was almost about to cry. I could feel the tears welling up as Jean and Chia wen tried to assure me that it'll be fine. I was at a total loss, there were so many things to do. But I thank God so much, firstly for giving me committed and faithful helpers in the Link team to help me out at the last minute. Chia wen and Jean offered to stay up late that very night to do up 3 pages. That instantly lightened my load by a lot. This month, God has really shown Himself to be faithful despite me not being faithful to Him. By His grace, the last article came in on Sat morning and I rushed it out on the bus to Coronation Plaza where I got the Link printed out. Not only that, I've certainly learnt to depend on Him, pray, and watch Him at work, creating miracles out of nowhere. On Friday Ian preached about Revival. I have to admit, my fire for God seems to be slowly ebbing away. But when Ian asked who wanted to stand up and have a convenant with God, I couldn't. I just couldn't. I couldn't feel the fire roaring within my heart. I only pray that God would send me that fire soon. I need it, oh I need it so badly. I miss the passion that's emitting from my heart, the thirst and desire to know God personally, and to reach the lost souls out there, to take those steps of faith and invite friends for church activities. Oh it's been so long since I last felt that warmth, the warmth of being alive with Christ's fire burning brightly. Admittedly, I was pretty relaxed at the beginning of March, and then I was so caught up with activities my focus shifted. It was no longer Christ, it was fun, it was for me, not Christ. And I began to feel pressure and stress, and I felt guilt too. I was guilty of having turned God away in my life, deciding things on my own, leaving Him out of the picture. it's a terrible feeling, to have guilt consuming you. And as I saw the faithfulness of God, I felt guilt taking a bigger bite into my heart. I've rarely had guilt biting so badly at me before, and just the thought of it makes me cringe with pain. And now, all I feel is remorse and the desire to come back to Him. It's been a rollercoaster, this month. But I'm glad, out of it all, I've learnt a few precious lessons and experienced new emotions. I'm one of the small group leaders in the youth. But honestly, I don't feel as though I'm up to the mark yet. For one, I've not been faithful in personal things even like my quiet time. I realized I've badly neglected this priviledge to serve God, there was absolue zero commitment and responsibility. But from today onwards, I'm gonna change that. I'm gonna fully commit myself to this responsibility and give my all. I don't want to just shine in church, I want to shine everywhere. For Christ. <3, CASS. |