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30 March 2008 ! at 5:55 PM ! Church camp was great, the games and the fellowship we had simply blew my mind! But on the last night I got bitten by mosquitoes all over my face! I had around 30 bites on my face ): And there were quite a bit on my arms too. My left eyelid was swollen, some insect bit it. But nonetheless it was a camp worth reminiscing about (: Sports camp was great as well! I love Kaji! :D Haha, it was fun meeting new friends and all. And I think I might want to join Volleyball, seems like an interesting sport. My mum used to play Volleyball too! Haha I bet I've got the Volleyball talent blood running through my veins now! :D I'm super tanned, but surprisingly I didn't get sunburnt. Played a lot of new wacky gross games which I believe the youths would like! Haha shall tell the games to the next games team master for the next camp! It'll be so fun! The last night of sports camp was like okayyy at first. The lights were turned off and there was music blasting, turning the hall into a place for clubbing in an instant. I was pretty sick of watching all the guys perform the same stunts though. After a while Germaise and I found Lyana and Eileen. Haha and the crescent girls danced on our own. I had more fun then. But overall, the camp was great (: This month's link took me on a ride of emotions! I was pretty laidback at first, a bad habbit I have to change. I kept thinking that it's okay, I still have time. I planned and planned, but not much action was taken. God taught me something really important. Planning's nothing without prayer. Sadly, my March was filled with activities, yet many a time I forgot to spare some time to come back to my Savior. It was heart-wrenching for Him I know, to see me putting off my quiet time again and again. Each time the Holy Spirit told me, Hey Cass, it's time to do your quiet time for today. Yet each time, I excused myself, coming up with lousy excuses I know were just plain rubbish. Doing the link has taught me a lot of things. Time management's simply one of the most important things. When school starts, I'm so afraid that I won't be able to cope with both school and church. But I don't want to give up church, I don't want to be slack with my studies either. Teresa said a sentence which lifted my spirits, she said, Honor God and He'll honor you. It was definitely comforting to hear that. By the time the last friday night of the month came around, I was in a panick. I didn't know what to do, what with 6 pages not done out of the 16-paged booklet, and 1 article not even in yet. I had to print it by the next morning. And then Ian did something that made my heart skipped a beat at youth; he announced to everyone that the Link was going to come out that very Sunday, which is today. Almost immediately, I felt the pressure and stress taking its toll on me. I was almost about to cry. I could feel the tears welling up as Jean and Chia wen tried to assure me that it'll be fine. I was at a total loss, there were so many things to do. But I thank God so much, firstly for giving me committed and faithful helpers in the Link team to help me out at the last minute. Chia wen and Jean offered to stay up late that very night to do up 3 pages. That instantly lightened my load by a lot. This month, God has really shown Himself to be faithful despite me not being faithful to Him. By His grace, the last article came in on Sat morning and I rushed it out on the bus to Coronation Plaza where I got the Link printed out. Not only that, I've certainly learnt to depend on Him, pray, and watch Him at work, creating miracles out of nowhere. On Friday Ian preached about Revival. I have to admit, my fire for God seems to be slowly ebbing away. But when Ian asked who wanted to stand up and have a convenant with God, I couldn't. I just couldn't. I couldn't feel the fire roaring within my heart. I only pray that God would send me that fire soon. I need it, oh I need it so badly. I miss the passion that's emitting from my heart, the thirst and desire to know God personally, and to reach the lost souls out there, to take those steps of faith and invite friends for church activities. Oh it's been so long since I last felt that warmth, the warmth of being alive with Christ's fire burning brightly. Admittedly, I was pretty relaxed at the beginning of March, and then I was so caught up with activities my focus shifted. It was no longer Christ, it was fun, it was for me, not Christ. And I began to feel pressure and stress, and I felt guilt too. I was guilty of having turned God away in my life, deciding things on my own, leaving Him out of the picture. it's a terrible feeling, to have guilt consuming you. And as I saw the faithfulness of God, I felt guilt taking a bigger bite into my heart. I've rarely had guilt biting so badly at me before, and just the thought of it makes me cringe with pain. And now, all I feel is remorse and the desire to come back to Him. It's been a rollercoaster, this month. But I'm glad, out of it all, I've learnt a few precious lessons and experienced new emotions. I'm one of the small group leaders in the youth. But honestly, I don't feel as though I'm up to the mark yet. For one, I've not been faithful in personal things even like my quiet time. I realized I've badly neglected this priviledge to serve God, there was absolue zero commitment and responsibility. But from today onwards, I'm gonna change that. I'm gonna fully commit myself to this responsibility and give my all. I don't want to just shine in church, I want to shine everywhere. For Christ. <3, CASS. 12 March 2008 ! at 11:45 PM ! I went to watch Sky Of Love with Lyana today. I practically died in the cinema. The movie was so sad!!! ): It was so heart wrenching for me, especially since I had no clue as to what the movie was about. I thought it was a lousy show because the trailor showed the guy betraying the girl! At first I didn't want to watch. But then I read in the newspaper that it caused 11 million people to cry and apparently it's quite good so Lyana and I decided to watch when we met up today. When Hiro was dying and Mika was communicating to him via 3G phone (I finally saw a good use of 3G phones), the scene was so sad I just kept crying ): And to top it off, I'm having a flu so I sounded as though I was sniffing throughout the entire movie when actually I only cried near the ending. And when I cried with my half-blocked nose, my nose became blocked entirely and I ended up having to breathe through my mouth ): Well I teared at a couple of scenes, but the scene at which Hiro died, I died crying too. Oh my, I want to watch it again, and I'm sure I'll be crying again ): After the movie, when Lyana and I started talking about it, I was about to tear thinking about the sad scenes. Honestly, it's one of the rare love films which actually made me cry so badly. SKY OF LOVE IS HIGHLY RECOMMENDED! I'll give it 4.5 stars! :D And Hiro is such a sweet character. His man-made rainbow was so sweet! Lyana and I will both die if guys are sweet to us lah!!! Hahaha! And there were some girls fangirling in the cinema, so funny! Oh no, the more I talk about it, the more I just want to watch it again NOW. ): I shall force Germaise to watch with Lyana and I again next week. It's one of the rare movies I don't mind spending money to watch again. I love this movie! Haha and Lyana and I decided that next time, our guys cannot cry at movies we never cry, but I don't mind if my guy tears at movies like Sky Of Love where I cry so badly to such an extent, but he cannot cry as badly as I do! Just tear will do, otherwise he'll be so gay! Haha! But guys who cry at approporiate times are good, at least they're not emotionless creatures. :D PS. Please bring lots of tissue when you go to watch this show! :D Anyway, I was so silly yesterday after work. I forgot to change my work pass for my IC, so I had to travel down to SICC to get it back. Went for some Christian Talk with Germaise and Celestine at SYFC building at aljunied. Got home late ): Anyway, I'm gonna be away for camp tomorrow! :D So I shall go off now! <3, CASS. 06 March 2008 ! at 5:17 PM ! Germ's birthday was a smash :DDD All the hard work and effort that went in to make sure she would be utterly embarrassed was not wasted! Hahaha we made her don a princess costume and walk around Bugis and give out flyers which were 'birthday invitations to her birthday party'! Heh it was taking place at 100 Acre Wood. And then she took the MRT to Orchard and we walked around with her (we even saw the F1 racers! :D) until about dinner time we went to eat Swensen's. But Swensen's was packed so she changed out of the princess costume, though the manager had already saw her in that and was about to offer her a special seat. Aww, what a waste. Well the manager was kind enough to make her stand up and embarrass her to the people there, although the Singaporeans there were kind of a wet blanket as they merely stared at her standing up. They didnt even bothered to join us to sing her a birthday song or clapped -.- How enthusiatic. Haha but all in all, we had a great time embarrassing her! :D Lately all I've been doing is slacking at home watching VCDs and playing computer games. There were no more job vacancies and then I was pretty tired of having to go to work alone anyway ): Well God has really provided for me in so many ways I don't even know where to begin counting. I don't even think I can ever finish counting. This is especially so for my Poly fees. They're pretty hefty to begin with, well perhaps not very expensive for most families but I know my dad won't be able to pay for it all. Not only are they hefty, I still have to buy Ngee Ann's Notebook computer. I was really wondering how in the world am I gonna be able to pay for all these, I didn't really want to take up a study loan but then if I didn't I'd not be able to afford. These thoughts lingered long on my mind, and somehow I wasn't so sure about taking up a Poly education anymore. I saw a quote "The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor." It struck me hard, and I realised, the only thing I had to do was to pray. Prayer. That was the key to ALL my problems. And so prayed I did. God answered my prayer almost immediately. I decided to take up the study loan which seem like the best bet, but I had to have a guarantor, so my mum asked her closest cousin to be my guarantor. To my surprise, this aunty of mine said that she won't be my guarantor. Instead she'll pay for all my school fees and even for a new Notebook (though I found out at this point of time that it wasn't compulsory since I have a Tablet already). Just like that, God had once again answered my prayer and provided for me, abundantly even. It was beyond my wildest dreams that a relative would actually so generously offer to pay for everything. Of course, this is a favour that I must return, but for now, I'm just so thankful for the blessings from God. This incident brings to mind a particular promise God has held true to, and I believe He will continue to: Matt 6:26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barnns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? One of my recent favourite songs are Call To Worship by MercyMe. I will worship the one who threw the stars to the night I will worship the one who tells the sun to shine I will worship You I will worship You [Chorus:] My hands I lift to You My voice I lift to You My heart I lift to You Hallelujah I will worship the one who calmed the raging sea I will worship the one who hushed the rage in me I will worship You I will worship You [Chorus] [Bridge:] Prince of Peace, almightyGod Counselor, Holy One Lion of Judah, Son of Man Son of God, the great I Am Resurrection and the life King of kings, Jesus Christ [Chorus (2x)] I love the bridge especially, the names and the meaning behind each name of Christ just blows my mind and shows me the God whom I worship with reverence and awe. It's a pretty cool song to listen to, while getting to know the many different names of God at the same time. I think I read somewhere that there are a hundred different names of God! How cool is that! He is the Name of all names! :D Recently I've been (in a way influenced) listening to more of Corrinne May's songs now that I have more of her songs. I love the tunes and there are a couple with interesting lyrics (: Of course, her quite a number of her lastest few songs are worship songs. I love shelter though, it speaks of a beautiful friendship, a friendship that one can find support and encouragement from the friend whose singing the song. Although at first it didn't strike me as that, it struck me more of God who was calling at my heart's door, asking me to pour out whatever problems I have faced in life to Him, so that He may be my comforter and peace giver. What’s wrong, what’s getting you down Is it something I might have said? You’re walking around with your head to the ground and your eyes are watery red I know you’ve been through tough times Kicked around, thrown to the ground but you’ve always been the strong one So don’t tell me that nobody gets you ‘cause I’m standing in your corner Knocking at your door You don’t have to be alone Just call my name Let me be an answer ‘cause it hurts me to see you this way I wanna ease your pain Help me understand Let me be your shelter my friend We share a bond You and I we belong We’re like coffee and morning trains You strip my defenses, I catch your pretences The same blood runs through our veins I swore I’d be your lifeline Made a vow that I’d surround you with love at every milestone I’ll listen when nobody gets you I’m still standing in your corner Waiting by your door You don’t have to be alone Just call my name Let me be an answer ‘cause it hurts me to see you this way I wanna ease your pain Help me understand Let me be your shelter my friend It was not too long ago You sought to understand You helped me mend Remember when So promise me you’ll Call my name Let me be an answer ‘cause it hurts me to see you this way I wanna ease your pain Help me understand Let me be your shelter my friend Alright that's about all (: I'll update again soon, hopefully! Haha I can't wait for dragon boating on Sat! :D <3, CASS. |