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24 February 2007 ! at 12:45 AM ! I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy, I'll be your hope I'll be your love be everything that you need I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do I will be strong I will be faithful 'cause I'm counting on A new beginning, a reason for living, a deeper meaning yeah I want to stand with you on a mountain, I want to bathe with you in the sea, I want to lay like this forever, until the sky falls down on me And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky I'll make a wish to send it to heaven then make you want to cry, The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty That we're surrounded by the comfort, and protection of The highest powers, in lonely hours, the tears devour you I want to stand with you on a mountain, I want to bathe with you in the sea, I want to lay like this forever, until the sky falls down on me Oh can you see it baby, you don't have to close your eyes, It's standing right before you, All that you need will surely come. I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy, I'll be your hope I'll be your love be everything that you need I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do I want to stand with you on a mountain, I want to bathe with you in the sea, I want to lay like this forever, until the sky falls down on me I love this song. (: it's really really old but it's still one of my all-time favourites. Haha I love today as well! :D Today is the last thinking day celebration I'll ever attend at the Indoor Stadium as a guide. I think I'll really really really miss guides a lot a lot a lot when I step down. Although guides always have something for me to do and there are so many things I can get pissed off with in guides, but the happy memories I get are so much more worth it. The beautiful memories I have of getting high, making new friends, trying out new stuff etc etc, it's priceless. Although I don't admit it, but I guess deep down inside I really really really do love guides a lot more than I could ever imagine. I'll miss camp christine. That campsite holds a lot of precious and beautiful memories for me, 3 annual guide camps, 1 pltc camp and 1 church camp. And I always stay or pitch tents at pax lodge! The satisfaction you get from being able to pitch a proper and good tent, from being able to cook a proper meal during outdoor cookings, from being able to chop wood, from the campfires, from the manito games, from the coh, from the late-night-only-sec-three-talking-session-with-the-YAs-and-Guiders, from getting all dirty and stinky and tired out etc etc are just too wonderful and irreplaceable. (: Gosh, it feels like I'm stepping down already. Time really does flies, doesn't it? So fast and I'm sec 4 already. I remember what Kerry, my 1st PL wrote in my souvenir notebook: Treasure your time because you'll be sec four before you know it. And it's true, in a blur, I'm in the last year in Crescent already. It's amazing how big a part guides has played in my Crescent life, and I love it. I'll miss all those times, I just know it. Well anyway this year is the 90th year of girl guiding in Singapore! Haha the thinking day performance was the best, it was so wonderful! I saw Yanting and Ying Shan! (: Then I went up to hug Ying Shan, I miss them so much lah! I didn't see the others, though I saw one girl but I couldn't remember her name. I recognised her though. After that I went to James' house for Kailing's surprise birthday party! I was like mugging physics there. -.- Before Kailing came that is. It was fun, I got to know Irene and Nicholas and Eugene Peng much better and it was super fun just rubbishing there and cooking food and eating it! Haha I think I'm gonna explode already. Later my 87kg nightmare come true I'll just die. Okay I'm off to study and mug already, good night folks! (: So take many pictures, laugh too much and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spent upset, is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Life can be such a bitch sometime. rephrase, most of the time. -Charmaine's blog; I agree with both. With feelings swirling and twirling, it's an internal whirlpool when it comes to you. <3, CASS. 21 February 2007 ! at 2:15 AM ! Visiting Charm's blog makes me feel like uploading my own camwhoring photos! :D The ones which I took during cny 07. Day 2:  me and Charm ; 1st attempt, my head got cut off! D:  Charm and I ; cousin always.  I didn't mean to fall in love with you.  Me and Maia ; Oh how I love this active girl! Her favourite game's hide and seek! :D Day 1:
Koped from Charm's blog dated feb 17th 07, enjoy. (: uth had reunion dinner ytd. hahah. the fireflies combined with joshua's tribe. but there was more of us then more of them. hahah. jiahao brought his steamboat cum hotplate thingy. hahah. we had some really good food. hahah. like the delicious cheese sausages. hahah. and my buttered crabsticks :D heh. it was a really good time of fellowship with everybody. we all cooked and sweated to make sure our food was good. hahah. everybody served each other. it was loads of fun. my table was all the super duper noisy ppl. hahah. jiahao and his really loud singing, joshua just being uh, weird? HAHAH. what with daniel and his nonsense roaring (HE'S THE BEST WITH CHICKEN! my personal chicken chef :D), boyan was just cooking and cooking. hahah. cassandra, iris and i just cheering and screaming over anything. hahah. rikki was a great help with flipping over the food and preventing them frm being burnt. jiamin and felicia were like the meat ppl. whole time i see them cooking chicken and beef. hahah. but i guess this is a really carnivorous meal yeah? hahah. there was yummy durian pudding. which we cheated samantha was mango pudding. hahah. she really hated durians. so i think she wanted to shoot us. hahah. well, not exactly us. i knew of the plan but i didn't assist in executing it. hahah. but i chased her arnd with a durian pudding forcing her to try. which i failed nonetheless. hahah. so i guess i'm guilty as well :D the games was really interesting. Give me a chance to see, that you are made for me. <3, CASS. 20 February 2007 ! at 3:30 AM ! Haha it's been a super busy weekend for me since cny's arrived! :D It's been fun though, I love all the gatherings and collecting of hongbaos though after that I get really really bored. ): Especially the gatherings at my mum's side. My cousins don't even talk to me lah, the 3 guy cousins around my age are somewhat sprouting weird hairdos. Wonder what's wrong with them. :/ Okay I sound really mean, but it was really... Weird. Even my mum says my oldest cousin's hair like mop :/ And she told him in his face leh! Wah lao. But I guess it's okay because she said it in a joking tone. Haha all my dad's side relatives told me I look prettier and all, which is good, but I guess its only because i dressed up a little more today. Oh wells. Anyway... HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERIE AND CHERYL! Gosh, wish I could attend their bbq party. ): But I had a boring dinner to attend, the one where my cousins don't even talk to me. But there's this little girl who's 4 and she's extremely cute! Her name's Maia and she's so active, kept asking us to play hide and seek with her. Haha but then her room got nowhere to hide lah. So in the end we ended up taking pictures and tickling her. We were so bored we prank called Shawn Tien! :DDD He doesn't have caller ID mahh, so it was extremely funny! Alrighty, I wanna go watch naruto already! Then I shall go sleep. My body's acting weirdly recently. Like how I can't get to sleep despite it being 2 and yet I can wake at 9am on a Sunday morning when I usually wake at 2pm if I don't purposely get up. :/ And then once I actually slept until almost 5pm when I slept at 12am the last night! And I had a terrible nightmare last night ): I dreamt that I was 87kg, and I was like a balloon, about to burst anytime! THAT WAS SO HORRIFYING. I woke up immediately. :/ All my sister's fault, she kept talking about weight before I fell asleep last night! I realised I always dream weird dreams of things which either people tell me or something. Anyway the dreams always end up distorted. Why can't I dream that I was 47kg instead and look much much slimmer and nicer, RATHER THAN SOME STUPID 87KG BALLOON BURSTING DREAM!!! Argh, distorted nightmare ): Haha okay I shall go watch naruto already, just one episode, then i'll go sleep. I really need to complete chemistry despite it being so hard and me not knowing how to do like a gazillion out of a gazillion and one questions. Oh wells. Nights everyone! Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow, I can't let go. When will the night be over? I didn't mean to fall in love with you. <3 <3, CASS. 14 February 2007 ! at 12:46 AM ! http://www.clementsen.com/email/friendship.php HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL! <333 I just love the love atmosphere, it's so sweet! Don't you think so? ;D <3, CASS. 10 February 2007 ! at 12:55 AM ! Friday morning and afternoon especially, was terrible. ): I was nervous like anything lah. Crescent seriously is MAD. Average 9.9 points. Then I went to the hall to 'experience' the atmosphere. It was really an experience. A bad one. I keep thinking of one year's time, like how it'll be my turn to be sitting there and getting that piece of paper. ): And I cried twice. Even though I wasn't even collecting anything. So screwed lah.
Went innova's funfair today. Today was an angry day. ): This whole week, I don't think there's a day that passed without me feeling angry/depressed/worrying. And I don't like this at all.
Oh wells. Shall go to sleep le. I need to be more productive studying tomorrow. ): <3, CASS. 08 February 2007 ! at 11:45 PM ! Even though I keep my eyes closed against the bright morning light as long as possible, I am so thankful that I can see. Many are blind. Even though I huddle in my bed and and wait until the last minute to rise, I am so thankful, that I have the strength to rise. There are many who are bedridden. Even though the first hour of my day is sometimes wild and hectic, when socks are lost, Breakfast is burned and tempers are short, I am so thankful, I have someone who loves me. There are many who are lonely. Even though my breakfast table might never look like the pictures in magazines and the menu is sometimes less than gourmet, I am so thankful for the food I have. There are many who are hungry. Even though the routine of my life seems monotonous, I am so thankful, for the opportunity to work. There are many who can not find a job. Even though I grumble and complain of my fate at times and wish my circumstances were not so modest, I am truly thankful, for life. This is how I felt this morning when I woke up and I looked around and realized that my life is a gift, we can always wish for more, but happiness lives when we appreciate and are proud of who we are and what we have. I am not a millionaire or a famous celebrity. I have problems and heartaches and moments of insanity. I also have a roof over my head, clothes on my back and at least one person on this earth that cares for me. I am so thankful, and it feels wondeful! Take a moment today to count your blessings and give thanks for what you have overlooked. I know that someone has made my life possible and today I give thanks to Him. written by "C.H." Got this in an email, and I think it's pretty meaningful. (: I hope I can give thanks sincerely like that. HAPPY BIRTHDAY IAN! These few days ): I don't know what's wrong with me. I get irritated easily, even though I don't show it. I don't really have much of an appetite, I feel hungry in class, but when I go down to the canteen, I don't know, just don't feel like eating anymore. :/ Pe was disgusting today ): ran 3 rounds today round the humongous canal and then after that had some stupid hockey thing. ana and pui were irritating me during the run especially, when across the big fat stupid canal shouting rubbish. Wah lao then Germaise skipped pe again, as usual she's 'sick', then the mc people all sit one circle and talked. ): Felt like joining them. Haha they spotted me eating chewing gum while running lah. Oh wells. Was so tired. Especially since I ran like, almost 2 rounds in the morning before pe. Bio test was okay today I guess, Chem test tommorrow. And all the teachers keep bluffing me! Malini never put ss test paper in the library for me to do and Ravi disappeared when he asked me to look for him to do english test. GREAT. I have just about a million and one tests coming up and now there's more. Sherwin told me I look like I lost weight today during pe and Amirah told me I look nice with my hair down. :D I guess I should be happy. But I don't know why I'm not. <3, CASS. 04 February 2007 ! at 7:05 PM ! I refuse to be discouraged, To be sad, or to cry; I refuse to be downhearted, And here's the reason why: I have a God who's mighty, Who's sovereign and supreme; I have a God who loves me, And I am on His team. He is all-wise and powerful, Jesus is His name; Though everything is changeable, My God remains the same. My God knows all that's happening; Beginning to the end; His presence is my comfort; He is my dearest Friend. When sickness comes to weaken me, To bring my head down low, I call upon my mighty God; Into His arms I go. When circumstances threaten to rob me of my peace; He draws me close unto His breast, Where all my strivings cease. When my heart melts within me, And weakness takes control; He gathers me into His arms, He soothes my heart and soul. The great "I AM" is with me. My life is in His hand. The "Son of the Lord" is my hope. It's in His strength I stand. I refuse to be defeated. My eyes are on my God; He has promised to be with me, As through this life I trod. I'm looking past all my circumstances, To Heaven's throne above; My prayers have reached the heart of God I'm resting in His love. I give God thanks in everything. My eyes are on His face; The battle's His, the victory mine; He'll help me win the race. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (: Got this from Daphne's blog, very encouraging. I pray that I'll be the child in the poem, who will refuse to be discouraged, sad, downhearted, refuse to cry. And I will stand strong in my God, because I am His and He is mine. <3, CASS. ! at 7:00 PM ! K: I don't know how to help you, I can only pray for you. I'm getting tired of being disappointed. It's tiring knowing that you promised me earlier in the week that you'll go with me on friday to church and yet, every friday when I call you after I end school, you never on your phone or pick up. And after service when I search for you, I realised you played me out. Again. You didn't turn up, staying at home and giving me all kinds of weird excuses when I asked you why you never come. I thought you wanted to get right with God. I don't want to give up on you, I want to keep encouraging you to come back to Him and come back to church. But. it's really draining me mentally to feel so disappointed every single friday. I don't want to stop trying but. I can only do so much. I can only try my best to encourage you and help you in whatever way I can. But you have to work things out with God on your own, you have to take the first step to ask God for forgiveness and ask Him to let you come back to Him. You were the one who told me about your dream, and that you wanted to go church once again, regulary. You promised me. But. You don't seem to mean it. You don't seem to want to get back to Him. I don't know why. And everytime I ask you about it, you just hesitate and not answer me. Whether through sms or msn. But i just wanna let you know that no matter how tired or disappointed I am with you, I won't give up. But I can only do so much, the ultimate decision still lies in your hands. Please stop giving me false hope anymore. Z: Somehow I sense the disappointment when I told you I bought you a book of prayers. You told me you don't know how to pray, I tried to come up with ways and suggestions to help you. Like doing daily devotions and reading your Bible daily etc. But even when you promise me you'll do it, you still don't. You give me a gazillion reasons like how you are so tired and all. I try to understand but when you give me excuses everyday it just isn't right. Here I am, trying my best to help you. But there you are, not bothering to help yourself at all. I know you can't come to church with me regulary on friday because you've got tuition. But then. You told me yourself tuition ends at 6. There's still time to come from orchard down. I'm glad you accepted Christ, but i'm worried for your walk with God. You're not progressing further and I can see that. But I really want to help you to get right with God. I'm trying my best to encourage you with all I can but it's draining me as well, making me disappointed everytime I ask you 'Have you read your Bible'. But all I can do is pray for you, only you yourself can really help yourself. I just want you to know that I won't give up on you, but there's only so much I can do for you. The ultimate decision still lies in your hands. Father, I pray for K and Z. I pray that You'll leave them with no excuse to not want to come back to You. It's been tiring and disappointing encouraging them but I pray that You'll give me the strength I need to keep encouraging them. I thank You for them. I pray that You'll work in their hearts and make them know that coming back to you is just so simple. Sometimes, they discourage me. Watching how they just give up hope, Father I feel the desire myself to give up hope on them. But I thank You for the strength You've given me to hold on fast till now. Help me Lord, to keep encouraging them and trying. Father I know only You can bring them back to You and I pray that You will. Use me Lord, to keep reaching out to them no matter what. It has been long and tough, but thank You for always being there for me, for being my strength, especially in times of need. Father I pray that they'll have a living and close relationship with You. I feel the burden for them and somehow Father, I feel the need to see them get right with You once again. I pray that everything will be in Your will dear Lord. In Jesus' name I pray, AMEN. <3, CASS. ! at 3:15 PM ! What if God decided to stop leading us tomorrow because we didn't follow Him today? What if we never saw another flower bloom because we grumbled when God sent the rain? What if God didn't walk with us today because we failed to recognize it as His day? What if God took away his message because we failed to listen to the messenger? What if God didn't send His only begotten Son because He wanted us to be prepared to pay the price for sin? What if the door of the church was closed because we did not open the door of our heart? What if God stopped loving and caring for us because we failed to love and care for others? What if God would not hear us today because we would not listen to him yesterday? What if God answered our prayers the way we answer His call to service? What if God met our needs the way we give Him our lives? Got this from daphne's blog, it was really thought-provoking. I'll just die if all these 'what ifs' are true. But I thank God He's not like that, He doesn't do things based on our actions. Thank God He's always there for me, no matter what, He loves us all unconditionally and He's love is just too much to be measured. Nothing comes even close to His love for us and many times He loves us just as we are. Even though we sin countlessly, He still loves us. I really want to thank God for all He's done for me and He's unfailing love. (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMIE! 9th year as classmates, it's really amazing how God has put us in the same class yearly since p2 (: Haha I remember how we never talked to each other until p5! When Mrs Wong put you next to me, then we also never really talked, until the 'frog-teacher' came in! Haha, and we drew so much rubbish on papers and passed messages to each other during lessons! (: And from partners I started hanging out with you and grace, charm, sam, nat, xiwen, gen and even xm!!! Gosh I remember we used to talk so much about xm, and then we lied to her that we were going to assumption sec in p6 when we collected our posting results! We were like, so disappointed she was going to go same school as us! Haha but then I guess we both never even talk to her anymore! Oh wells, those memories of so many years of friendship brings back so many smiles and loves. (: Keep in touch even after we go up to JC yeah? Maybe, we'll be in the same JC and same class again! Gosh, it'll really be cool, wouldn't it? :DDD Love you loads my dear and may our friendship bloom and grow! <3, CASS. |
Christina and I, another one of my love.
Haha, I had nothing better to do while waiting for my sisters to shower! I love my new dress!