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31 July 2006 ! at 11:30 PM ! Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour I know for sure, all of my days are held in Your hands, crafted into Your perfect plan You gently call me into Your presence guiding me by Your Holy Spirit Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life through Your eyes I'm captured by Your holy calling Set me apart, I know You're drawing me to yourself Lead me Lord I pray Chorus: Take me, Mold me, use me, fill me I give my life to the Potter's hand Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me I give my life to the Potter's hand You gently call me into your presence guiding me by Your Holy Spirit Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life through Your eyes I'm captured by Your Holy calling set me apart, I know You're drawing me to Yourself Lead me Lord I pray love this song. it's really sweet and it makes me just want to surrender my entire life to Him all over again, just as I've done before but failed. yes Lord, take me and mold me, use me and fill me, the emptiness that once filled my heart, You've filled me up. I'm pleading with God, to take this ruined life, this worthless piece of rubbish, to take it and put it int His perfect plan. I'm captured by Your holy calling, its so true. As I listened to the song, I felt this longing to return to God's side admist all the busyness of life. I just felt as though suddenly, I could hear God calling out to me, I could hear Him calling me to return to Him once again, to walk with Him and be beside Him all the way. He was drawing me nearer and nearer to Him, and I could feel that closeness I once had with Him but lost it. its so true when someone says, if you have God, you have everything you could ever need and ever want. He's the answer to everything, He's my eveything. yes indeed He is. on friday night, Ian came back and preached and unplanned message that I think spoke to lots of people's hearts. and it spoke to mine too. FAITH. that was it. so simple, such an easy task, to just have FAITH in God, yet somehow as I reflected on my past few weeks, I realised, I couldn't even do such a simple thing. how am I gonna fight the battle for Him? how am I gonna win over Satan's temptations and have victory in Christ? somehow, somewhere, along the way, I seem to have lost faith in God. lost faith that He'll lead me on. I realise I had drifted away from Him, I wasn't as close to Him as I thought, I didn't knew Him like I thought I did, and I was further away from Him than I knew I was. and I knew there and then, I wanted to go back to Him, I wanted to be with Him once again, I wanted to be hungry and thirsty for His words again, I wanted to know Him all over again, I wanted that passion for Him within my heart again, I wanted I wanted, and all I wanted and needed was to be back in His arms again. to feel His love, feel Him leading me on, to be the princess for my King again. and that night, that message brought me back. I suddenly felt God at the door of the house in my heart, knocking and calling out, calling my name, pleading with me to let Him in. I was surprised, I was shocked, and I found out the truth. the truth hurts but I knew I had chased Him out of my heart unknowingly, and allowing myself to rule over my own heart. I had told God, no God, I want to do this my way, I'll try Yours if mine fails. I had chased Him out myself, personally. and how stupid I was, to have thought that maybe God and I could communicate through the door of my heart, or maybe there were windows, but I found none, and the door, I could not hear His way clearly. I needed to recommit myself into His hands again, I needed to have FAITH and believe and trust and depend on Him. and such a simple request of God's, yet I couldn't fulfil it, I couldn't do it. but now, I want to do it. I just want to have FAITH in Him. and FAITH is all that I need. FAITH. yup, and sat was no-name and nosnuma's combined outing. and aad and speech day. went to school at 10.30, helped qiwei abit, left school at 11.15 to go to cine to meet them for lunch(: and after a hurried lunch, i left at 12.45 to rush back to school for duty. and the duty was to move tables and benches. grr. and i even got my skirt dirtied and drenched when i was moving the tables and benches. ohwells. waited in the guide den for guides to come collect bread and water and only a handful came. sigh. then left kay and edwyna in the guide den and i went to the hall waiting for ronin to come. and me, shuyi, adelicia and ziying went high and mad and the three of us were high until cannot high and so we tried to get ziying to be high with us. and we took a lot of photos with chuting's cam :D haha zi-lianing! :D haha we were seriously HIGH! well then we hung around and waited and waited and waited till 3.15 and ronin wasn't there yet! and some stupid digusting band was on stage, they couldn't even sing, they were just shouting shouting shouting! worse than spanish-fly (mcfly's cousin! xD haha inside joke xD)! well anyway then went back to guide den. the entire guide group of us. and well we had bread conference in the guide den! haha cuz there were so many buns left and so we sat there telling lame jokes and eating buns and listening to the radio on my phone cuz none of us felt like going home. then at about four, the school chased us out D: and i left, carrying with me 7 buns! i felt like some bread woman D: well met the sec 2s at the bus stop, got them to eat some buns for me :D they invited me to lynn's birthday celebration but i was kinda paiseh and then anyway i had told teresa and the rest i was coming to join them(: so anyway made my way down to OG and met them. haha had a fun time together. darren was hilarious please. madness lah he! haha chongchong and marcus joined us after that. and we had tea and biscuits which were heavenly at mark and spencer's cafe! haha so fun so fun! and we played the survey game xD haha and marcus had an idea about inter-tribes competitions of various kinds over a period of time! haha and if there was an inter-tribe lame jokes telling competition it's either nona-me or fireagles win! cuz its either me or melody xD haha! it was really fun relaxing and chilling out with them. and we wanted to meet up for cycling at east coast next sat! but i think malcolm's gonna have some guitar thingy. oh and iris was super blur. aiyo. blur until cannot stand her lah! xD haha took 190 with marcus home. saw radha and prithika along the way and then i walked home(: love love love saturday! :D got back maths result today. 6/20, failed but improved. ohwells. i seriously think my maths is rock bottom already. <3, CASS. |