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28 April 2006 ! at 1:40 PM ! The reason why I nominated Miss Ho is because I think she truely deserves it. Though she has only been in Crescent for a very short period of time and is still quite a new teacher here, she has put in a lot of effort and time into helping the girls in my class with their maths. I remember the first lesson I had with her, I was actually terrified of her as I remember on the very first lesson, the very first thing she said before she started her maths lesson, she mentioned that she has a set of rules for us. Upon hearing that, I immediately associated her with the words hostile, scary, well basically any word that gives me the feeling of being frightened. And what made it worse was that she often made her eyes big and that made her scarier. But gradually, during lessons when some of our classmates made jokes, she would laugh along too and she herself would make jokes once in a while to lighten the mood in class and I have thus, learnt much more effectively than before. My class' maths may not be the best and we're probably not the brightest students around learning maths. Sometimes, its seems to me that it is more of a challenge to us to master maths than it is to other classes. But because of this obstacle, we have seen Miss Ho's caring and gentle side. Knowing that we would miss many lessons, she would purposely arrange for classes with us and spend her afternoons teaching my class maths. Not only that, she is even more caring and special to students like me who do not take up add maths. Knowing that our foundation is weak and we do not really understand maths as quickly as the other students, she would give us extra practices, take us out during the add maths periods scheduled for my class and explain over and over again the maths concept and how to apply the formulas. Not only that, on our maths assignment, she would often write words of encouragement such as, "Keep up the good work!" etc. This often encouraged me to work harder on my maths, pass my maths tests and master it all the more. It served as a reminder of how much faith Miss Ho has in me to get not just a pass in my final year maths, but also and A1, the goal I'm aiming for. It really touches me to know that someone actually cares for me and is concerned helping me improve on my weakest subject. I also remember that on the day I got back my first common tests results. Within a short period of time, I had gotten back two papers - maths and science physics, both of which I had failed. Unable to take in the reality, I succumbed to the tears welling up in my eyes and cried silently as I walked down the rotunda. Miss Ho was walking from behind and knowing I cried (because another teacher told her when I walked past that teacher), she chased after me and comforted me. That made me feel much better and gave me more confidence to strive for my maths. Another reason is also that she would often encourage us to appreciate other teachers. For example, whenever we complain to her about how we don't understand what the other teachers are teaching and that we think negatively about them, she will jump to their defences and tell us that we should appreciate them too and approach them should we have any doubts in that certain subject. I think that is a very selfless act of her, and its heartwarming to know that she also cares about the other teachers, not just herself. Yep and its all true, all from the bottom of my heart. I think being a teacher is a very encouraging job. I'm considering beong one, though perhaps not maths, all my students would then fail :/ Bio! yes i want to be a bio teacher if i ever decide to be a teacher. and mr nah is a very good bio teacher too! i wanted to nominate him, but too bad he's still a trainee teacher and after he graduate also dont know where he'll teach at and maybe not crescent he say cuz got no more space): but he seriously can teach and i score so well for bio its cuz he can teach and all the info goes into my teeny weeny brain. and he's really caring, always arranging for consultations for our class and he's very patient with all the noise and our class always being so loud and won't settle down properly. Talking about jobs, i just realised that there's a whole lot of jobs i want to be/take on but i dont know if they'll involve maths or require amaths in the courses. i seriously hope not. I want to be doctor - gyne(women's doctor)/petrition(children's doctor) /lawyer! / social worker! / teacher(considering) / psycharist!/ pathologist(you get to cut up dead bodies! how cool is that!) hahaha yea. ohh i remember when i mentioned i wanted to be a pathologist to miss ho and that it was very cool cutting up dead bodies, she looked at me with this super funny expression that she's shocked! hahaha! but i still think its cool, seriously. In a sorrow space, In my deepest dreams, I remember, I remember seeing you I remember your eyes I remember your smile I remember you In a lonely night, As I remember, I remember, I remember hearing you I remember your words I remember your breath I remember you Chorus: As I feel cold, I feel cold, You give me your clothes; you give me your warm As I feel hungry, I feel hunger You give me your food; you feed me with life As I feel down, I feel depressed You give me hope; you feel me hope You are here In a sorrow space, In my deepest dreams, I remember, I remember seeing you I remember your eyes I remember your smile I remember you Chorus: When I feel cold, You are here You take off your shirt; you suffer for me When I feel hungry, You are here You give me biscuits and make me feel full When I am down, You are here You are here, always here, telling me: "I'll do anything, almost everything, to protect you." i think its a very sweet song(: especially the last two lines! haha and this past week has been pretty okay for me. glad that i passed bio and chem tests with flying colours! but sad thing is i failed my maths): its really disappointing for both me and miss ho i guess. that makes it doubly sad.)): sigh. i really really want to pass maths, not just pass but like at least get a b grade. and i failed ca1 overall lor. 48 again. i hate the number 48. last year final year overall got 48 that's why i can't take amaths this year. omt lor): this is such a saddening thing. and im sick too. down with a flu and slight sore throat. sigh. ohh wells i better go le. tmr there's still english mid years waiting for me. and many many more mid years down the next two weeks. and i want the A1s for ALL my subjects. so byebye everyone, tc and good night! :D "I'll do anything, almost everything, to protect you." ; will i get to hear that from you? will you be the one for me then when everything just seems to be going wrong? in any case, i just want to be there for you; i love you. <3, CASS. 23 April 2006 ! at 1:15 PM ! Don' t be fooled by me Don't be fooled by the face I wear For I wear a thousand masks, masks That I am afraid to take off... And none of them are me Pretending is an art that is second nature with me but don't be fooled I give the impression that I am secure That all is sunny and unruffled with me That confidence is my name And coolness is my game That the water is calm and I am in command And that I need no one Please don't believe me. Please. My surface may seem smooth But my surface is my mask Beneath this lies no complacence Beneath dwells the real meIn confusion, in fear, and aloneness But I hide this. I don't want anyone to know it I panic at the thought of my weakness And I fear of being exposed That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind A nonchalant, sophisticated façade To help me pretend To shield me from the glance that knows But such a glance is precisely my salvation My only salvation and I know it That is, if it is followed by acceptance If it is followed by love It is the only thing that will assure me Of what I can't assure myself That I am worth something But I am afraid to tell you this I don't dare. I am afraid to I am afraid that your glance will not be Followed by love and acceptance I'm afraid you'll think less of me That you'll laugh at me and your laugh will kill me I'm afraid that deep down I'm nothing That I'm no good And that you will see this and reject me So I play my game, my desperate game And a trembling child within And so begins the parade of masks And my life becomes a front I dislike hiding. Honestly I dislike the superficial game I am playing The phony game. I'd really like to be genuine Spontaneous, and meBut you've got to help me You've got to hold out your hand Even when that's the last thing I seem to want Only you can wipe away from my eyes The blank stare of breathing death Only you can call me into aliveness Each time you're kind and gentle, and encouraging Each time you try to understand because you care My heart grows wings, very small wings Very feeble wings but wings With your sensitivity and sympathy And your power of understanding You breathe life into me I want you to know that I want you to know how important you are to me How you can be the creator of the person that is me If you choose. Please choose to. You alone can break down the wall Behind which I tremble You alone can remove my mask You alone can release me from my shadow-world of panic and uncertainty From my lonely person. Do not pass me by. Please do not pass me by It will not be easy for you A long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls The nearer you approach me, the blinder I strike back I fight against the very thing I cry out for But I am told that love is stronger than walls And in this lies my hope Please try to beat down those walls with firm hands But with gentle hands, for a child is very sensitive Who am I, you may wonder I am someone you know very well For I am everyone you meet. ~ a poem sent to me by dearest sis Annie - an apt reminder for us to keep reaching out to others and to look deep into the hearts of every individual who need the touch of God's love in their life... Hereby perceive we the love of God, because he laid down his life for us: and we ought to lay down our lives for the brethren.But whoso hath this world's good, and seeth his brother have need, and shutteth up his bowels of compassion from him, how dwelleth the love of God in him?My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth.~ 1 John 3:16-18 the above poem and verse were taken and copied from daphne's blog(: what a sweet yet real poem! i totally love it and daphne's posts are always so encouraging and nice(: well the whole of last week was a great week! i felt really blessed by the Lord as He blessed me by just the simplest of all things - keeping me awake in class. Practically the whole i hardly felt any time when i was really tired except maybe, a couple of periods when i fell asleep. But its a great improvement and i really thank Him for providing me with His strength to go through this whole past week. had 4 tests all together. bio, emaths and chem were surprisingly quite easy and do-able while phy was as usual, un-do-able. well basically cuz i dont understand anyway. yup and i love last friday night! which in other words yesterday night(: we watched the bloopers scene and also had the 'golden horse award thing'! hahaha well joshua was best actor, nicholas best supporting actor and geraldine best actress though it was supposed to be iris but she didnt go so yup. and their prizes were fruits hahaha! well i and some other teenz started playing those games we used to play in pri sch! it was enjoyable(: haha and now im hooked and addicted to those games already! haha and my hands hurt like i-dont-know-what. haha in short, i was terribly happy reliving my childhood games and playing all of them last night(: haha and me and jessie havent completed our 3 rounds of hand spanking scissors paper stone game! haha i won the 1st round! we've left with two rounds next fri must play to fen chu sheng fu! heh. and i played that scissors paper stone winner takes step back loser stretches leg game with jon muk! haha and at first it was pretty unfair cuz his legs were obviously so much longer than mine): haha but all thanks to LUCK i won the scissors paper stone part(: then i also played some black white grey sheep with jean and hai dai with her too! hahaha the hand spanking game i played with so many people until my hands were like sunburnt :/ but it was fun! haha i love it. in the end i think a whole lot of people were kinda scared of playing with me liao le! cuz i spank very hard de(: then i played with yufei but then he hit very gentle, haha guess its cuz he's a guy then if he use full force i'll probably die or smth. but i still spanked his hand very hard when i played(: haha mimi and nini dont want to play with me le - all scared of me :D hahaha. today i nearly managed to go for the rock climbing activity at sp with mimi and the rest :/ but last min smth came up so i cldnt go): yup had medical check up in the morning and i was pretty depressed after that to the extent ithat i nearly cried D; but yea. luckily i had some super-comforting friends and i cheered up pretty soon esp after i start thinking of all the fun times i had like last night(: and now im quite happy le(: recently there's some problems i encountered with my stupid tablet and its stupider charger and im pretty stressed and fustrated and irritated with the two of them. bah. all also about charging de. but i trust God will provide a way for me as long as i pray to Him about this and He'll help me(: well that's about all and mid years are in 6 days time so i better go study le. byebye(: do you have any idea how much i want to be with you? how much i've missed those times; carved right into the middle of my heart. yes, those times spent with you. and yet, you're so ignorant of it all. how could you? i cant gather up enough courage to say those three little words to you, yet i dont know if you feel the same and will ever say those three little words to me. <3, CASS. 19 April 2006 ! at 1:00 PM ! well today the TA did some configuration thingy thingy thingy to all our tablets): and dont know what they did! luckily im smart enough. otherwise i wouldnt be able to log in to the tablet and use it(: bahh i think they're gonna track down what websites we go and all that. and jamie said they say they might be able to track what websites we go FROM HOME. what kind of rubbish lah! we bought the tablets and as if tracking in school isnt enough, we dont even get some privacy FROM HOME when we're AT HOME using our tablet for leisure activities. bah stupid configuration. hahah and jamie says it's probably gws' dumb idea cuz she's just jealous we got a life and she doesnt. irritating. ohoh! i cant wait for june! there's like obs and then there's gonna be church combined tribal camp and ohoh much fun! i want time to forward to june holidays! and skip all the mid years and everything. anyway tmr's there's like sci phy and emaths test! i can just go and bang my head on the wall and die now :/ and on thurs there's bio and sci chem test! urgh. bio'c still quite okay its the other three that i dont have any confidence with. im afraid i'll fail, and i dont want to. well i guess i better go study le or i'll really fail. my life's so screwed. i just can't get you out of my mind; aren't the signs clear enough? if only you knew; <3. <3, CASS. 18 April 2006 ! at 11:45 AM ! well its been one hectic rush non-stop week filled up with loads of activities and all! haha and last friday was GOOD FRIDAY! i brought kaiting, jamie, charm, grace to the easter movie but sadly, none of them got a chance to be even told the gospel and they aren't saved): but well! i trust God will have a way! and i met iris's friend huiling(i think) and she thought i was in pri sch! i nearly died there and then. and i thought i was looking more mature than usual le! oh my tian seems like i really cant look mature. and on sat, nat and yiying went but before the movie even started, they left when i didnt know. oh thanks alot for coming huh. anyway luckily i had kaiqi and shihan! and shihan got saved! whee(: haha im glad and happy for her! hopefully her parents will let her go for friday teenz worship and she can come and have fun! hahaha and she was laughing so hard during the movie me and kaiqi werent laughing at the movie but practically laughing at her! haha! and then after the movie the three of us had a toliet trip and then kaiqi took so long joan had to come and find us! hahah and the toliet was my home(: i miss the toliet badly): hahah but yea had loads of fun on sat with kaiqi and shihan!(: sun i cldnt go for the easter play at scgs): kinda sad but yea well. anyway since i cldnt go, i stayed home to do my hw and revise abit on chem even though half the time i dont know what im revising. oh my tian i am so dead lor. i dont understand my chem physics and emaths! and there's like phy and emaths test on wed and bio and chem test on thurs and i think im gonna flunk chem phy and emaths. i only have confidence in my bio. and if my bio also flunk, then i can just go bang my head on the wall and die now. oh wells i better go and do some studying soon. byebye. and what would i do without you? i just dont have the courage. is it my imagination; or we just shy? please dont leave me hanging by the thread, wondering if it really is love that i feel connecting the both of us. <3, CASS. 11 April 2006 ! at 10:10 AM ! A young man was getting ready to graduate college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted. As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box. Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible. Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money you give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy book. Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care things. When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search his father's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. As he read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped behind the Bible. It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words...PAID IN FULL. How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected? oh my tian. i think this story is just totally so touching and sad and sweet and all that lah. now come to think of it, i do think that many times i've missed God's blessing just because they did not come packaged as i expected but packaged in another way and i never even botheredto go look through and examine the package to find the blessing God has in store for me. this story has taught me not to look at everything at just the surface, but in depth. well today was really good seeing as i once again have not fallen asleep in class at all! hahah yup and guides was cancelled(: hahah yup but i have like loads of catching up to do so yea(: tata :D are you thinking what im thinking?(: i wish you're mine. <3, CASS. 09 April 2006 ! at 12:00 PM ! im happy today cuz today is the funfair day!(: thank God that it was bright and sunny throughout and there wasnt any bit of rain! praise God! haha. it was really fun today and aika and wei na came in the morn after my duty(: then we walked around and had loads of fun at the hunted house with jiamin! haha it wasnt all that scary and aika was so funny! haha she actually asked the 'ghosts' which way to go! hahaha! yea and jiamin grabbed me super tightly but it okay(: haha though she gave me a shock :/ haha but it was fun overall! then i idled an hour away before iris, horn sau, yu fei, hanol, ian, lilies, elias, jessie, mimi, jon chong, audrey, kailing, melody came! yup haha and we had fun looking for stores and eating and then some of us went to get the socks thing(: it's terribly cute please(: haha and then iris, lilies, jessie, mimi, audrey, kailing, melody, felicia, henrietta and me went to sit the super nice ride! haha it was so nice! hahah! well we had so much fun today(: haha quite a great week really have to thank God for giving me the strength to stay awake during most of my lessons in school this week! yup(: well that's all gotta do homework le! tata(: well anyway i dont think im going to blog so often already seeing as nobody really bothers to visit and tag anyway but yea(: and how often i think about you and your smile, and how nice you are to everyone, and i wish so many things for you and me. but i doubt it's gonna be possible; you've fallen for a girl but who she is i do not know and i wish its me but i dont think so. if only it is. i'll be yours; you only have to ask, will you be mine? <3, CASS. 06 April 2006 ! at 12:20 PM ! im glad that there'll be teenz going for my funfair! hahah well i hope everything goes right on that day! well under God's control, how can it not!(: hahah and guides we're selling balloons again as usual! well im pretty nervous i think tmr's the interview for the posts next year! tian ah and its gonna be so scary :/ well i just hope that i'll get the position of programmers! tian ah and so many people want to be progreammer somemore :/ but im usually high and hypered up during guides sing-along! so i really really hope can get :/ well that's all for now people!(: tata and tag my board please. it's dying almost dead. :/ haha bye! and the words that seem so hard to say come out when you've gone away just stay a little while and hear me say that I want you here tonight and I need you by my side for just one more moment for just one more moment. you yes you ______. and i wish i got the courage to tell you i <3 you(: <3, CASS. ! at 12:20 PM ! GET WELL SOON ZIYING! GET WELL SOON HORN SUA! GET WELL SOON DAPHNE! GET WELL SOON IAN! GET WELL SOON CHIAWEN! oh my tian please. so many people are either sick or injured! and i have muscle aches too): arms and shoulders and stomach! because of the stupid 5 stations that i did yesterday for nafa! but well im happy with the result! haha i got at least 2 or 3 Cs 2 or 3 Bs and 1 A! YAY! which means that if my 2.4 is a C and above, i'll be able to get a GOLD for nafa this year! haha cant wait to train for 2.4! but it must be like 16 mins and below): so fast i can just go and bang my head on the wall and die now! i run like at 20 mins now? bahh.and! i jumped 180 for standing broad jump! COOL OR COOL! penny ang helped us de lah. she put a gym mat covering the standing broad jump mat until 160 then i jumped! and woah! i jumped to 180! haha YAY(: and as usual i did 30 sit-ups and then i ran like 11.3secs for shuttle run and 38cm for sit-and-reach and woah! i did 15 pull ups! hahaha i never never ever did so many pull ups before! COOL OR COOL! and yesterday RONIN came again with the full band! YAY and it was concert-like and we were allowed to jump and gather in front of the stage! YAY SO FUN please! i <3 RONIN! haha and only if every tues was something like this! COOL OR COOL! haha <3(: <3, CASS. 03 April 2006 ! at 6:30 AM ! The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers. Specify the gender of the target. Tag 4 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying that they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again. Gender: male! 1. must be a child of God. (hopefully go to same church(: ) 2. taller than me. (not too tall though(: ) 3. friendly and jokeable. (: 4. is able to make me laugh, feel secure, feel loved. (: 5. loves to sing and dance and just be high and happy. (: 6. is willing to maluate himself for me. (: 7. loves me as deeply as i love him. (: 8. do sweet thoughtful things every once in a while. (: haha and 4 people to do this would be: 1. iris! 2. jamie! 3. sophie! 4. joyceho! haha anyway it has been almost a week since i last updated yea? well hardly anyone visits my blog anyway. haha well. anyway its been a pretty eventful week and i learned inequalities this week! and its rocking fun cuz its so easy(: heh. yup and on fri for art i went to some musuem place and studied china's past clothes of emperors and court officials and stuff like that :/ well it was pretty fascinating at first but i kinda got bored quite fast :/ hahah and then i fell asleep and tricia goh caught me though she was nice to not scold me i thought she would seeing as she's so fierce im a little scared of her :/ haha well she didnt(: anyway then i went for teenz didnt go for crezawards(: haha well i only get to go to church on friday nights mah so i wouldnt miss it for the world(: haha. well but the bus took so long to come i was very inpatient :/ which i know i shouldnt be but yea haha. well i watched the easter movie and it was so funny! haha hopefully i can go on both days cuz i invited people and not all can go on the same day! oh haha and after the movie i hang around as usual and me and ter were talking until we came to the topic of frogs! hahah and i taught ter how to do the little green frog song! hahah and we did it to jiahao that pig! and we had to wait for him to take so long to change and then we were so giggly we had to do it again for him! haha and a lot of people esp yufei and jessie, were staring at me and ter! and i think my sisters couldnt do the song properly haha cuz they were laughing. jessie let us hear some super cute songs! haha i like i like <3(:> and yesterday i went to adel's church(: and her aunt said i look slimmer! COOL OR COOL! xD hahah and early in the morn i had art class! haha did a painting with suet hoon for the ndp parade! haha kinda cool it was raw art which means like children art kids painting and it was so dead cute! haha yep then went home then went for adel's church. and i slacked whole day today now i gotta go do my homework le which are bio essay and inequalities! my new found <3s(: and i wish i knew what to say to you everytime we meet; but im just too shy. <3, CASS. |